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Sunday Apr 04, 2004

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...and when the night has not yet died, you are new
with the promise of a love you will probably never find
and touch that you can really feel
the brokeness inside as "hope" and "less" collide. Now nothing is real...
And there is nothing more I want than just one night that's free of doubt and sadness.
One night that I can really feel.


yeah, I can find an Oberst quote to fit anything situation whatever I'm sorry...

So the party, in my eyes, was a flop...out of control huge...but a flop non-the-less. When most people's main goal is to get "fucken' hammered bro" my eyes glaze over and my mind starts to wander. I've got to admit I'm a sucker for the idea of parties and the false sense that something great will come out of the evening. But the best part most often involves being back at a house drinking, listening to music and talking to the friends I didn't need to get lost in a sea of people to hang out with in the first place...

...there was a time when I had to meet these people for the first time that I am so close to now...so I know that it can happen again.

On that note I will milk this cow for all it is worth...song of the day - Bright Eyes - Blue Angels Air Show

so i am reminded of things ive forgotten.
the way doors can open and people just walk in.
its not unexpected, no its just how you planned it.
im beginning to think that it might never happen.
but now it is happening...


(but for now I need to get access to a scanner...give it a day or two)
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
evil_homer:
Yeah, I've come to lower my expectations for parties. Very rarely are they as fun as I would like them to be, although I often like it when a band plays. A band that doesn't suck, that is.
Apr 5, 2004
rottensockets:
In a situation like that you can only do one of two things, drink and join the crowd, not a good one, or find a snug corner and watch. These things aside from the idea of leaving in the first place though. People watching really sends a twindge in my organs... it makes me feel like I'm living-learning-and being quite entertained all in one. I don't know, it's fun.
Apr 6, 2004

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