I've been up for quite a while now... couldn't go back to sleep because of some dreams and I laid there with my mind racing for hours. It sucks have feelings that you have to keep to yourself otherwise you'll be thought of as a creepy obsessed weirdo. And there's nothing quite like waking up to feeling like you want to vomit.
Oh man. My head has been in extreme pain since like 9 this morning. I've decided I'm going to try and stop drinking coffee at least long enough to break my dependancy on it even though I love it so much and its one of my favorite drinks. I'm going to just try to have it on occasion, like just a few times a week...
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Well... as of right about now it has been exactly one month since I decided to ask for help and finally make a choice to change my actions and life. Beyond just saying I will and telling myself I will, I've taken action and now I'm fighting to win- its my only option. I've had the tools and a way out all along and God...
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stellae:
Hello, thanks for your comment on my set, i wish you the best coffee ever!
This month feels like I've transcended years worth of learning and time and events in my psyche. If that statement makes any sense at all. I'm really working hard on my issues and the daily struggles now that I've chosen to take action are so incredibly intense.
Every day I have a fist fight with God over one thing or another. I'm fighting against my...
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Every day I have a fist fight with God over one thing or another. I'm fighting against my...
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Last night was so much fun! I wish I had taken some photos. We went to Cool House Tom's and celebrated my buddy's 21st birthday. It was a Toga party! I made a shiny pretty pink toga (which matched another girl there, lol). And it was quite fun and a enjoyable dance-filled time.
I'm kind of pissed that one of my friends broke my pipe...
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I'm kind of pissed that one of my friends broke my pipe...
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Havn't been on here all week. This week I bought a new server off eBay to continue expanding my shell hosting as my current machine is overloaded. I've been focused mainly in my free time on computer geekery madness. I'm sleepy now.
I got some Amanita mushrooms this week. I ate what would be considered a strong dose last night- what most people report was...
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I got some Amanita mushrooms this week. I ate what would be considered a strong dose last night- what most people report was...
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Tonight I went to a Basque restaurant for dinner with my family, to celebrate my sisters, her fiance, and my birthday. I hadn't ever been to one before. It was so much fun. We ate alot of food and drank alot of really good wine and now It's time for me to crash hard.
On Friday I randomly left work early last minute because HedwigRobinson...
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On Friday I randomly left work early last minute because HedwigRobinson...
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It be my birfday today. V_V Nobody except my mom noticed though. Oh well. I kinda felt bad since I'm busy working on a project, she was so nice to me and I could tell my lack of enthusiasm due to having to work made her kinda sad. I feel guilty.
kirara367:
I thought I texted you a happy birfday and you just never responded, but now I'm looking at my phone and the big red x next to the message indicates to me that you never got it. But I was totally thinking of you~ *throws a cyber-cake at you* How's it feel to be OLD?! XP
Decidedly, having to work on your birfday makes it way less exciting. I mean, I've never been one for the celebration because mine always tend to be bad. Alas, I think 20 is when it officially becomes just another day...
Decidedly, having to work on your birfday makes it way less exciting. I mean, I've never been one for the celebration because mine always tend to be bad. Alas, I think 20 is when it officially becomes just another day...
