lonewolf367

This month feels like I've transcended years worth of learning and time and events in my psyche. If that statement makes any sense at all. I'm really working hard on my issues and the daily struggles now that I've chosen to take action are so incredibly intense.

Every day I have a fist fight with God over one thing or another. I'm fighting against my male~ness nature and stubbornness to do what I want vs what I know is right and what God's standards are for my life. I fight tooth and nail even though I can't win and will be forced to submit (and I want to) but I just can't help it. It drives me to insanity.

I have been scouring for some answers this evening and came across this, Paul explains what's happening I think extremely accurately.:
"When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin and work within my members. What a wretched man I am!" - Romans 7:21-24


I was going to go out tonight but I instead will spend my night in prayer and reading God's word.