lonelyhearted

I really should make a new blog but I'm to depressed, upset, and lonely right now to care. i just want this pain to all stop, I can;t wait for my first therapy session, it's wednesday and I'm looking forward to it. I want to get help I want to change and get better. But until then I've got some meds to drown my sorrows with. And yet again it's a friday night and looser me is sitting at home by myself, nobody even cares that I'm here, nobody bothered to even ask if I was doing anything let alone invite me along. i would just be a fifth wheel anyways, dont want to be an obligation but it would be nice if someone cared. Fuck this shit I'm going to go cry for a while, maybe the pain will go away for a bit.