Jake (aka Modvayne) is at home resting. As you might have noticed, he wasnt feeling the best on Saturday night. On Sunday, Jake got to the Dr's and they found out he had pneumonia -- so he is taking it easy right now. Keep your thoughts with him so he can get his butt out of bed and hang out with everyone
It was very cool of Jake to drive me to the Brew on Sat night
the spoiler thing isnt a good thing- so if you dont want to be brought down - skip over it.
Saturday afternoon I talked to my mom (she lives in a nursing home in PA- and I found out last year she has myelodysplasia - and was diagnosed in 2003). She told me that there is a mass on her back - and that it is growing- and that the doctors are going to take a look at it. Last year she ended up in the hospital and was nearly on her way out - and at that time the doctor told me that she had a mass in her lung- and that they could not operate on it because of her diagnosis (the myo thing) - if they operate, she will bleed to death.
While I am not happy to hear about it, I was glad that my mom finally was telling me things. ***The ONLY time I found out about my mom's diagnosis was last yearwhen she ended up in the hospital- and the nurse at the nursing home told me. SO---- I found out about her illness (which is supposed to be terminal within 3 years) that she was diagnosed with in 2003 -- in 2006. I do not know what/why the oldest brother did not know this --- either:
1 - my mom did not tell him
2 - he knew - but blocked it out (if I recall correctly, some people when facing a family member's terminal illness tend to go into a state of denial. the problem is- that with him as a messenger- if he goes into denial, no one has a clue)
3 - he didn't know.
Anyways, provided my mom still keeps me in the loop, and that the information is correct, I'll have an idea what it going on. Unfortunately - even though my older brothers (and younger brother) are within the same state as my mom, none of them have a clue- unless I get the information when I visit.
I do not get to visit my mom regularly because of the money and the transportation needed to make the trip. Right before the last time (last year, memorial day weekend) I ended up with a car bill of 798$. And the car is not up to it now (and there is no way I could go without a vehicle: there is too much of a distance between places). And I am still working as a temp - so I do not get vacation days -- and even if I did get hired in, they are very strict for the first 90 days (probationary period) -- which also goes for their insurance (which - on a side note, because my doctor decided to close up shop - I have been without my b.p. meds since mid May (and cannot get any until I am seen by a new doctor - so that means $$$ on top of $$$ ).
**I am hoping that I "might" be able to swing a visit to my mom in december - near the end of the month: assuming finacial aid works out - and I pay back someone first - and no unexpected things happen -- Im going to try my darndest to visit my mom.
needless to say, I was a bit stressed out on Saturday- and so I had a few beers.
