lone_figure

I have some things to figure out some things.
1) job: I usually mention it, but my job sucked, and went from bad to worse last week.
2) job: What might be a good idea instead, woudl be to get a part time job. It might make things easier with school for me (though it would make money tight- especially for a car and for an apartment - and I need a different car and apartment, because neither are up to par)
3) Do I go into work on Sun night, especially since Thursday night my supervisor told us that we need to hit production rate (30/hour) even after telling her (and others) numerous times about that substandard parts we have for making the product, and how each item has to be double checked before we even get a chance to use those parts (my personal opinoin: why are we having to check the parts all over again when the suppliers are supposed to be checkign these thigns before they get to us-- and why isnt our quality people checing the stuff before it is borught out onto the floor)
Anyways, the people I work with act more like babies than adults, and instead of taking it up with a supervisor, they opt to give me the shit and I got to deal with it. I already told one coworker (the one I had to teach how to operate the machinery) that I am not a babysitter.

Here is a list of the characteristics the people I work with have:
1) person that cried after being back there the 1st week because she couldnt keep up. Now, she tells me I need to stop working so she can get the rack filled with parts for me
2) person from dayshift, that believes she knows everything, and has already told me that if no one helps her or the other person (#1), she will intentionally slow down so there isnt anything to put into the machine- until someone helps.
3) person that thinks she knows it all, and will question everythign you do. And, if you do not do it her way, she will say "whatever" and then wil not talk to you - and makes no attempt to let you know if something is wrong.
4) person who has becomed nicknamed "Spitfire": this is the same person I trained to operate the machine I operate. She gets pissed off at everything, and gets close to snapping at least one time per day (if I am lucky it is only 1 time per day)
And, of course, my supervisor. While she is OK to a certain extent, it seems as if most of it is only a ploy to patronize us so she can get things done. Case in point: She told me about a meeting she was attending regarding why the shifts couldn't get out 30/ hour. I explained to her the shotty parts we get (they have to be taped together - which takes more time to get things done), and also the machine was set to go slower. While she stated she'd mention these things, the very next day she didnt say anything about the meeting, excet that we definitely have to "max out production" and she then proceeded to tell us that we need to have a crew back there to run while everyone else is on their break. And she told the operator I trained that she woudl be back there for the breaks, since we would be short 1 person for each break. The supervisor did not come back for each break, and we ended up getting backed up. Supervisor didnt care: just wanted everything out anyways.
5) quality paperwork for the product made in my area states things differntly than what supervisor and 3rd shift quality have stated. After asking supervisor and qualilty (quality stated she'd "have to check into it") nothing has been done, and the way it is stated, a third ofthe completed product is bad as soon as it is out of the mold, and that would reflect directly back to the operator (which isnt the operator's fault, sicne that machine is known for causing problems)
6) Just checked online for that partime job I was told about: it is for students, however, it requires forklift experience, which I do not have. So, I have to look for somethign else.

I can see my job being the problem, however, finding a solution is something that is slightly out of grasp.


Lets see if I can make a poem while really tired and "down" (hopefully all the "drama" in my life will subside and I will be able to have a happy working environment and be able to enjoy I have away from work too)

Poem:

I hear the cries
and morbid screams
of those who have passed me by.
Their life subsisde, their heart divide
and the cut goes deep within.
At once life gave me its fleeting light
now all at once it gives no more sight.
Shattered dreams held by the screams
of the aspirations of the night.
They chained me down to hold me there
not knowing my heart would soar
it has come full circle but it now is in the
path of the steamroller.
The scythe rips me apart, as such my life would be
No mortal tongue its life expressed
for life ebbs to and fro from me.

The stench of life reaks its havoc
on the souls of all mankind
Doth they not have understanding
or is it all left far behind?

So, screams as lights at end of the tunnel
Try as they might to be
Willing participants in my life
what was to what will be.
Should I travel the path chosen for me
Or traverse this physical plane
Or would I waken from this sleep
and be in my own domain?

My hunger for life no longer can be satisfied
for the fields are none of the plenty
Yet my thirst keeps beconing me this thy time
and my heart is the lonely soul

Woulds't thou greet me as one would a friend
Or would I be lonely in the end
Seeing the reds, blacks, and darkest skies
however through awakened eyes
But too late for one as me
Been there before and pushed away from me
Abyss tried its hand with me:
The dance was pure majestic
Yet in its world I faded away,
I took back its grim reward.

Now I stand amoungst the rubble
Time and space did collide
As to many my life begat,
as to many my life doth died

But with these words not one could speak
as the wind for it is meek
whispering its tale of one as me
to those whose thoughts were peacefully
in their splendour I reign free

And then I flow away......
to wake again: another day.