lolo

Here are a list of facts;

* I am due tomorrow.
* Sometimes, the worst things happen to the best people.
* Contractions hurt a lot.
* Coco Pops Munchers are the best cereal ever invented.
* I love my boy.
* It is so freaking hot, even though it is rainy. Weird weather.
* I am going to try out herbal remedies and TENS.
* My puppy knows something is happening. Dogs are intuitive right?
* I am scared.

The last one is quite significant. My cousin has been staying with me since Monday, and she just left. My boy works all day every day, so now I am on my own. Waiting... Officially just waiting to give birth. I am bored, anxious, lonely, but mostly scared. Not of the birth, I am way excited for that. Excited for everything to do with that in fact. To get to meet this little person who I have been able to see through my tummy for the last few months, that will be amazing. But I am scared of not being a good enough person to keep the little one on the straight and narrow. Everyone thinks "you're having a baby" when you're pregnant, which is true, but I am also having a child. A kid. A person who will one day be my age. That is the scariest thing I have ever come to realise.

I didn't mean that to sound quite as negative as it did... Honestly.




Edited to add;
Thank you for all the awesome comments on my last journal. It's rad to know that so many of you actually care about my bump as much as I do.