lollygrrl

Oh my god..
I'm so going through it right now. I think my cunt of a girlfriend is cheating on me with someone from her work. She said she was running to pick something up like three hours ago and still isn't home. She took my car and my cell phone and doesn't even have the audacity to pick it up when I call. Now it's turned off. I think we're coming to the end of our three and a half year relationship. That's ok though.. we haven't really been girlfriends for a good year now. Sometimes when I see her.. I just get this feeling of anger and resentment but I don't know why. I'm more mad than anything right now.. and when I get mad.. I get, well, sad. It's like I don't know how to get mad. I just turn it into me and grab something sharp. I haven't cut in like, a year or so. But that always happens.. one year off.. one year on.
Here we go again....