lollipopgestapo

DDR 3rd mix was alot harder than I expected... considering I thought I was ready for light mode on Extreme... ah well... I'm also going at last to become a doll artist and I'm thrilled^^ I'm going after my dream and thats all there is to it^^ My dad supports me and thats alot more than I ever expected from him... my Cuquita is ever illuding me, and my minstrel tells me I am doing the right thing.. I know I am... but I get like this at times... feeling utterly hopeless and stupid... and I've been absolutely antisocial tonight... oh it's awful... poor Brandon... I hate that I do this to him... I just get so weird when Will is over... I guess it's just my way... but I'm hell bent on fixing all my silly flaws... must be an aries thing... I'm sure my minstrel would agree... as for Cuquita mia, well, I'm trying... but its hard to read her... I know I expect too much from her... " here I am expecting just a little bit... too much from the wounded..."... gods that song holds so much more meaning for me now... wow, I am just such twit... I obsess like hell over poeple all the time... I'm so glad she'll never see this... it's 1:30 am... and I'm tired as fuck all, but she and I are sending MySpace messages back and forth... I should really go to bed soon... but I'm just content to be a whiny loser I guess... this is just me rambling... I do that enough with my voice, at least on journal thingies like this I tend to be a bit more eloquent... or something... it sounds prettier^^.. oi... anyway I think I'm done now... though my head rages on...