Hey SG fam!
I've had a lot on my mind the last month or so and decided to take it to blog as I figured sometimes saying it out loud kinda helps ya know?
Since the New Year I have had a lot of issues being targeted on Instagram by what I assume is probably a small hate group.
They had been continually reporting my photos, despite the fact they hadn't breached any of Instagram's guidelines and seemed to be 'out to get me' for no apparent reason.
Unfortunately in time, this led to my photos being deleted, my account being deactivated at least 7 or 8 times, then finally the account completely disabled.
Now I'm sure to most it seems pathetic that someone would be upset over something so trivial. But I had worked for 3 years building up my account all for it to be destroyed by someone who decided they didn't like me or my content.
I had just reached 30k followers, which was a huge milestone for me, but now it's gone and probably wont be coming back.
What frustrates me most is the inconsistency and unfairness. It's one rule for one, one for another and Instagram's automated processes mean people like me don't stand a chance. I tried for 2 months to raise a harassment case with Instagram and my voice was never heard. I even reported myself as DEAD, just to get my foot in the door and speak to someone for help. When I finally got a response they told me they could not speak to me via that route and to go through the not so helpful help centre which obviously led me to dead end after dead end. So despite the fact this was affecting not only my livelihood but my mental health, they refused to help me, at which point I gave up and could see the account was gone for good.
It took me a few weeks to come to terms with that. I felt sad, deflated, demotivated, vulnerable, victimized, unsupported and my confidence took a huge hit.
Whilst now I feel like there is no use getting angry or upset about it anymore, my confidence is still suffering, to the point I question am I cut out for this? Do I even have what it takes? Do I really want to start over again?
So I am trying to stay positive. Some days are easier than others! I focus a lot of time on my cosplay crafting and my main priority is my Onlyfans. I work out 5 times a week and that helps keep me balanced and focused.
I know I am not alone in this situation and I can see this becoming more and more common. It makes me sad and some days I get so angry I just cry. But, onwards and upwards hey?
I have a photoshoot booked in this weekend with a good friend of mine and I am super excited! Hopefully that will give me a boost and remind me it is all worth it!
I also hope to keep building my little family here on SG and fingers crossed when my set hits MR, it's well received. (Fingers crossed!)
Anyway, rant over - sorry for rambling. That felt good though :)
Thank you to anyone who took the time to read!
Lots of love,
Lollipop 🍭
xxx
