Yesterday a man tried to accost me on the street. I'm not sure what he was going to do, exactly, but it wasn't going to be nice. I was walking, and he came at me from the side. I threw out a block and went into fighting stance so that 1) he would be stopped from getting any closer to me than he already was...
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Patience is a virtue. Being virtuous does not come naturally to me.
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kentclark:
Virtue's overrated. Or so I've been hoping.
wsoxfan:
I think you're doing great. I've seen some wonderful changes in you. That makes me very happy.
Things haven't changed that much with me and the boy, really. I'm feeling better about giving him more space. I think he's actually found a little more time to talk to me, and during the time we've spent together he's managed to put aside the responsibilities that are draining on him. Patience, patience.
s_eldorado:
From Kahlil Gibran's "The Prophet"
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous,but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but no into eachother's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous,but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but no into eachother's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.
wsoxfan:
Looks like your attitude toward the situation is paying dividends. Whoever said that patience is a virtue knew what he or she was talking about.
I had such a great Taekwondo promotion test last night. I knew my stuff and hit everything just right, but what was special were conversations I had with three people: the Grandmaster, a senior instructor, and a junior instructor (not the one who happens to be my boyfriend).
The Grandmaster told me I'm dangerous. Best compliment ever.
The senior instructor told me I'm a great...
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The Grandmaster told me I'm dangerous. Best compliment ever.
The senior instructor told me I'm a great...
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frolleinsuzy:
Congrats.
wsoxfan:
What a wonderful story and a great honor. Having so much positive reinforcement must feel very satisfying.
By the way. I'm in the city sometimes until all hours of the night. Maybe I should call on you for protection when I'm walking the dark streets of Manhattan at three in the morning.
By the way. I'm in the city sometimes until all hours of the night. Maybe I should call on you for protection when I'm walking the dark streets of Manhattan at three in the morning.
Well, my dad goes to see the oncologist today. They think that they caught the lymphoma early and that it will be treatable. As for my bf's sister, she fractured her wrist but didn't do any more serious damage. But obviously, she's very, very psychologically disturbed to have jumped out a window.
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wsoxfan:
I agree. I always seem to blog when I'm at my highest or lowest point. I'm feeling better about things.
I actually asked a woman on a date earlier today. We're going to an R&B concert next Saturday at the Theatre at Westbury. She accepted immediately, which was a good feeling. She's not in the lifestyle, which is why I didn't ask her out sooner, as I felt that she liked me. I suppose I was being pretty silly to eliminate every woman outside of the lifestyle from the possibility of forming a relationship.
Regardless, I'm looking forward to the concert and plan to have a great time.
Now that the weather is nicer, maybe we can find time to get together one of these days. My work schedule with the census bureau is pretty flexible, so maybe we can coordinate something.
I wish you and yours all the best.
I actually asked a woman on a date earlier today. We're going to an R&B concert next Saturday at the Theatre at Westbury. She accepted immediately, which was a good feeling. She's not in the lifestyle, which is why I didn't ask her out sooner, as I felt that she liked me. I suppose I was being pretty silly to eliminate every woman outside of the lifestyle from the possibility of forming a relationship.
Regardless, I'm looking forward to the concert and plan to have a great time.
Now that the weather is nicer, maybe we can find time to get together one of these days. My work schedule with the census bureau is pretty flexible, so maybe we can coordinate something.
I wish you and yours all the best.
wsoxfan:
Good to know. PM, text or call me when you know more about your availability. It's been much too long since we last got together.
My bf is so busy, between his work and crazy life shit, that I barely get to see him or talk to him. It sucks.
deceptiviewfilm:
texting? the new RElationship mediator
wsoxfan:
I hope his busy schedule is only temporary. If I was him, I'd make sure I made time for you.
I'm happy with some parts of life; I'm even very happy with them. I love the relationships I'm able to have with people now that I'm healthier, for example.
I'm less happy with other aspects of my life, mainly academia and work.
I think I'll spend the next several months reevaluating the parts of my life that I'm less content with. I'm not the person...
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I'm less happy with other aspects of my life, mainly academia and work.
I think I'll spend the next several months reevaluating the parts of my life that I'm less content with. I'm not the person...
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ferretbite:
I have felt a lot like that recently.
wsoxfan:
You've come a long way in your maturity. You're traveling on the right path toward physical and emotional health.
As I follow your progress, I get a growing sense of satisfaction for having been permitted to travel this road with you.
As I follow your progress, I get a growing sense of satisfaction for having been permitted to travel this road with you.
I'm doing better. My university assured me that I will not only have the 2 classes I requested for the fall semester, but I will have them at the Manhattan (as opposed to the Bronx campus). Much, much better.
As for my ESL job... I need to talk to those fuckers. The amount of money I'm not making there barely makes my working there worthwhile.
As for my ESL job... I need to talk to those fuckers. The amount of money I'm not making there barely makes my working there worthwhile.
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wsoxfan:
What a nice thing for you to say. Actually when both my daughters were growing up, all of their friends told them that they had the coolest dad. I guess that designation led to my having the coolest children. I'm sure my older daughter would support me too, even though she's somewhat more conservative than Heather.
I'd be remiss if I didn't mention Annette's role in raising my daughters as well.
I'd be remiss if I didn't mention Annette's role in raising my daughters as well.
radmonkey:
thanks for your thoughts...good to hear from a fellow traveler in these conundrums.
You know, I'm not even 100% sure I want children, but it's still really depressing to hear another academic say that, when she chose her career path, she felt she had to give up the idea of having kids.
The way the job situation looks for academics in my field right now, I might have to give up on a lot of things. Paying my...
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The way the job situation looks for academics in my field right now, I might have to give up on a lot of things. Paying my...
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wsoxfan:
Are you talking about layoffs, or finding a job in the first place?
The powers that be are so shortsighted. Institutons that don't generate income always suffer cuts first. Money seems to be what our priorities continue to be.
The powers that be are so shortsighted. Institutons that don't generate income always suffer cuts first. Money seems to be what our priorities continue to be.
wsoxfan:
It's a damn shame that educators get the short shrift. Our priorities are so out of whack.
I told my best friend last week that I love Greg. Yes, I know it's fast, but I'm very sure. Anyway, yesterday he told me he loves me. And then before I said anything, he asked me not to. He told me to take 48 hours to think about it before responding, because he feels like people can feel pressured to say it immediately after...
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wsoxfan:
I know I can count on you to understand.
siamkittie:
Awww...that's so sweet. Things happen when you know the time is right and everything feels right. Only you would know that. Fuck everyone else. 
And thank you for the vote of confidence. The phone interview went well today, but I'm still nervous about it.
Btw - you look beautiful in your profile pic.
And thank you for the vote of confidence. The phone interview went well today, but I'm still nervous about it.
Btw - you look beautiful in your profile pic.
how are you today?