lolablu

One of the guys I went out with over the past couple of weeks is an old friend of mine whom I hooked up with a few years ago. But, you see, we went out twice last week, and I wasn't really sure if either time was a date. When he randomly ran into me a few weeks ago, I was having lunch with my friend, and he thought I was on a date with her. Then he talked to an acquaintance of ours who told him I was engaged.

So the first time we hung out together, he assumed I was engaged. Which made me think, well, he was not intending to go on a date with me.

Then last night we went out and had the following dialogue:

Him: Are we on a date?

Me: That would be cool.

Him: Yeah, I would like that.

Me: It's interesting, because I'm mostly feeling lesbian and grossed out by guys right now. Like, if they kissed me, I'd throw up in their mouth.

Him: I wouldn't like that.

Me: I'm not grossed out by you, though. I wouldn't throw up in your mouth.

Him: Thanks. I appreciate that. Wanna make out?

Me: Well, now it's weird.

In the end, he came home with me. We didn't have sex, because I'm not ready. It would have made me feel really vulnerable. But I'm psyched. I like him a lot and always have; we've just never been single at the same time before.

I'm coming out of my messed relationship, and he's coming out of a 5 year long relationship, so things need to go very, very slowly if they're going to go at all.

Now I have to let the other two guys down easy. I would definitely want to throw up in their mouths.