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lolablu

A small one in New Jersey.

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Monday Jun 08, 2009

Jun 8, 2009
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These last few weeks with H will be bittersweet. I'm finding that the thing that makes me most sad is worrying whether he'll be happy when he goes back to his life in Japan. I can't stand the idea of him being unhappy. It's going to be painful for me when he leaves, but I know I'm free to keep looking and find someone else. He's not. He's stuck in his marriage.

I wish life were simpler.
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ferretbite:
No. They're just stupid and ordinary sometimes
Jun 13, 2009
wsoxfan:
Thanks for checking on me. Spending time with family allows me to divert my attention from my ongoing struggles, at least for a little while.

Things are progressing, but it's at a snail's pace. I'm trying to stay positive and focused. Being able to remain on SG is a relief. I have so many people who care about me here. You are very prominent in that category.

How are you doing? I think about you often. It's a comfort to know that you're there for me. I can assure you I'm here whenever you need me.
Jun 15, 2009

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