lokischild

listening to crickets
my house is fucking hot
i went to barnes and nobles today. bought $85 worth of books...one on evolutionary developmental biology, one on biological engineering, one by neil gaiman, and 2 from the ender series....and i sooo cannot afford it right now, but i splurged...yay!
i went to the gym today too...i joined the y like a week ago or whatever and this is the first chance i've had to go, but i love it.....i love being able to swim and not worry about anyone else or worry about having to deal with people that i don't want to talk to....just swim and think about shit and clear my mind of crap that's bothering me....
btw the stoner boy from work is a total failure....i had him over to smoke last night and while he may be smart with technology or whatever, he has no personality and is otherwise a complete neanderthal....he spent the night trying to impress me with his drug use....i really don't have the patience to deal with that anymore....
so i've decided i have no friends....i used to think i do, but i don't....the people that i thought were my friends apparently couldn't give two shits about me if they tried....so i think i'm just going to give up on people and stop even expecting to have any kind of life outside work and my books and my house....because thats all i really have and i think if i stop thinking that maybe someone does care about me and stop making the effort, that maybe it won't hurt as much...and that would be great...thats all i'm really looking for now.....
that's all....i intended this to be a short entry, but whatever

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