Listening to the blink song stuck in my head......
"And I'll teach myself to live
With a walk-on part of a background shot
From a movie I'm not in"
i really miss chris....having him to hold onto.....kissing him goodnight....waking up to him in the shower and knowing that i love him, and could wake up to him every morning and be perfectly happy with that......i miss how we fit so perfectly when he held me....i miss how he smells....i miss the language we had together....i miss his intelligence....i miss talking to him and always knowing that i would laugh when i was with him.....i miss how he knew what was bothering me, and how to help me deal with it.....i miss being there for him.....i miss being the one that he could talk to and come to and i wouldn't judge him......i miss sitting on his couch while he played the drums.....i miss looking in his eyes and seeing the smile that was only there when we were alone together....i miss how he never sat still and how he was never afraid to speak his mind and how he couldn't give a shit what other people thought about him....i miss the fact that he stands up for what he believes and how he is one of the only people i know that will never bend his morals and values for anyones benefit, even his own.......i just really really miss him and i don't think i'll ever get that back.....and i know i'll never get it with anybody else....
oh fuck.....i'm being corny and sentimental again.... how the fuck do i get over this pain?
-=squish=-
"And I'll teach myself to live
With a walk-on part of a background shot
From a movie I'm not in"
i really miss chris....having him to hold onto.....kissing him goodnight....waking up to him in the shower and knowing that i love him, and could wake up to him every morning and be perfectly happy with that......i miss how we fit so perfectly when he held me....i miss how he smells....i miss the language we had together....i miss his intelligence....i miss talking to him and always knowing that i would laugh when i was with him.....i miss how he knew what was bothering me, and how to help me deal with it.....i miss being there for him.....i miss being the one that he could talk to and come to and i wouldn't judge him......i miss sitting on his couch while he played the drums.....i miss looking in his eyes and seeing the smile that was only there when we were alone together....i miss how he never sat still and how he was never afraid to speak his mind and how he couldn't give a shit what other people thought about him....i miss the fact that he stands up for what he believes and how he is one of the only people i know that will never bend his morals and values for anyones benefit, even his own.......i just really really miss him and i don't think i'll ever get that back.....and i know i'll never get it with anybody else....
oh fuck.....i'm being corny and sentimental again.... how the fuck do i get over this pain?
-=squish=-
"-You are mortal: it is the mortal way. You attend the funeral, you bid the dead farewell.
You grieve. Then you continue with your life.
And at times the fact of her absence will hit you like a blow to the chest, and you will weep. But this will happen less and less as time goes on.
She is dead.
You are alive.
So live."
[Edited on May 13, 2005 7:50PM]