Listening to the water in my fishtank...
So this has been the most retarded past few days ever....my sister moved back home, we completely rearranged the upstairs of the house, i got a job, we're both going to college in the fall, and my computer crashed.......i'm using my mother's laptop right now......
so yeah....i basically got a job bc of my sister's asshole father.....it's not official yet, i still have to have a "real" interview, but apparently the guy who owns quassy is really good friends with my sister's father and used to hook her up with tickets and such....so.....i'm all set....and i don't know how i feel about that......i mean, i didn't even want to take his money at christmas or anything....i would have rather gotten a job on my own merits.......but if it helps me get a job, and i really need it then shouldn't i be grateful?
i'm a redhead now...not like blatantly redhead, but kinda like a dark auburn, or a burnt cinnamon color....
i'm going to the flogging molly concert next monday with a friend of mine....i was sposed to go with my ex but he has class that night, although he may come late........he called me yesterday and i decided that i really miss him....everysingle thing that i read, or see, or hear....it keeps reminding me of something that he used to do with me....and i know it sounds sappy and stupid and retarded and cliche, i hate it as much as everyone else........but it's true and it sucks.......i can't seem to get it through my thick skull that we may not get back together....i keep thinking that there's no way he's not going to be in my future....i keep refering myself back to him....am i just retarded?
i can't seem to think and i find myself eagerly awaiting a job some school anything to distract myself from the social disfunction which seems to be me but i'm caught in a spidersweb of my own devising blinding myself to the images of truth that coulda been freedom....but....ignorance is the opiate of masses.....and i've suddenly found myself a heroin addict
-=squish=-
So this has been the most retarded past few days ever....my sister moved back home, we completely rearranged the upstairs of the house, i got a job, we're both going to college in the fall, and my computer crashed.......i'm using my mother's laptop right now......
so yeah....i basically got a job bc of my sister's asshole father.....it's not official yet, i still have to have a "real" interview, but apparently the guy who owns quassy is really good friends with my sister's father and used to hook her up with tickets and such....so.....i'm all set....and i don't know how i feel about that......i mean, i didn't even want to take his money at christmas or anything....i would have rather gotten a job on my own merits.......but if it helps me get a job, and i really need it then shouldn't i be grateful?
i'm a redhead now...not like blatantly redhead, but kinda like a dark auburn, or a burnt cinnamon color....
i'm going to the flogging molly concert next monday with a friend of mine....i was sposed to go with my ex but he has class that night, although he may come late........he called me yesterday and i decided that i really miss him....everysingle thing that i read, or see, or hear....it keeps reminding me of something that he used to do with me....and i know it sounds sappy and stupid and retarded and cliche, i hate it as much as everyone else........but it's true and it sucks.......i can't seem to get it through my thick skull that we may not get back together....i keep thinking that there's no way he's not going to be in my future....i keep refering myself back to him....am i just retarded?
i can't seem to think and i find myself eagerly awaiting a job some school anything to distract myself from the social disfunction which seems to be me but i'm caught in a spidersweb of my own devising blinding myself to the images of truth that coulda been freedom....but....ignorance is the opiate of masses.....and i've suddenly found myself a heroin addict
-=squish=-