lokischild

listening to the queen of the damned soundtrack
so.....yeah.....well i just saw the best b movie for modern movies....Cursed.....it is so great....not to mention it has christina ricci in it.....she has one of the greatest bodies besides adriana lima....but it was such a confusing night for me....i think i hate the army more for the 2 years it stole for me then for what i did while i was in it....if it wasn't for the army i might still be with the one guy that i really fuckin loved.....and now that i lost him and fucked that up for probably forever, i'm not too sure what to do with myself....this is the first time i've been single in a couple years...so i'm just really confused right now.....i see myself going into a repeat of a short-lived relationship that i had a couple years ago, only with someone else......and i don't wanna do that....but i'm afraid of hurting this kid cus he's a really cool guy....and could be an excellent friend, if i don't fuck it up....which i have a tendency to do....sometimes it seems like everything i touch i end up burning.......every action turns into a fuckup and i get so scared of making another one that i freeze and i can't move or do anything, and that just ends up making everything worse.....
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing thats real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of s**t
On my liars chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
-trent reznor, nin

i beat someone fair and square in pool today....they really sucked
-=squish=-