listening to snoring.
this whole working until 12:30 is killing my sleeping habits. i am almost always wired until about 2 or so,even when i smoke.
i went with my sister and her friend talia (who owns a killer head shop in CT) to watch my sister get a tattoo. i got insane ink envy. i haven't been in the chair for over a year. she got the constellation Orion (just stars in the shape of the stars in the constellation, no lines) and the line "shine on you crazy diamond" on her forearm. her friend had wanted orion on her back, so my sister got it in memorium. it came out excellently.
i've been thinking about my last entry since i put it up. i almost just deleted it and put something else. afraid of showing too much of myself i suppose. but i decided to leave it up. there's something about the internet that allows for anonymity. i'm sorry if i didn't get back to your comment, i appreciated all of them. so thank you, guys, for taking the time to read that, and comment.
i can't help but think sometimes that we are very alone in our heads. that seems to be something peculiar to humans. sometimes i feel like something, or someone is missing, but there was never anything to fill that gap. i'm not talking about my other half, or my One True Love. just some sort of. i don't know. i want to say connection. to my fellow humans. an ability to share with other people. but there's not. and language does nothing but butcher thoughts and emotions and feelings and ideas. i just wish there was a way to communicate.[/CONFUSED RAMBLE]
this whole working until 12:30 is killing my sleeping habits. i am almost always wired until about 2 or so,even when i smoke.
i went with my sister and her friend talia (who owns a killer head shop in CT) to watch my sister get a tattoo. i got insane ink envy. i haven't been in the chair for over a year. she got the constellation Orion (just stars in the shape of the stars in the constellation, no lines) and the line "shine on you crazy diamond" on her forearm. her friend had wanted orion on her back, so my sister got it in memorium. it came out excellently.
i've been thinking about my last entry since i put it up. i almost just deleted it and put something else. afraid of showing too much of myself i suppose. but i decided to leave it up. there's something about the internet that allows for anonymity. i'm sorry if i didn't get back to your comment, i appreciated all of them. so thank you, guys, for taking the time to read that, and comment.
i can't help but think sometimes that we are very alone in our heads. that seems to be something peculiar to humans. sometimes i feel like something, or someone is missing, but there was never anything to fill that gap. i'm not talking about my other half, or my One True Love. just some sort of. i don't know. i want to say connection. to my fellow humans. an ability to share with other people. but there's not. and language does nothing but butcher thoughts and emotions and feelings and ideas. i just wish there was a way to communicate.[/CONFUSED RAMBLE]
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I dunno... I'm pretty good at getting everything that's in my head outside, into the world.
I think it helps to talk. And talk. And talk and talk and talk and talk until you can't talk anymore. Get your one-true-love to listen. He loves you, right? Then he'll listen 'til his ears fall off.
It helps a whole lot better if he understands what you're trying to say too!
Unfortunately, it would appear that my thoughts are a little complex for my loved-one. Sometimes she doesn't get it. Oh well, can't blame her.
It just helps to speak to those who are experienced, or are loved by you.
Not much help I know, but that's just my perspective.
Hope you are doing well.