listening to papa roach
so, very soon...i may be homeless....last night my mom gave me a week to take all my stuff and get out of the house....a week....because she blamed me for her dog getting loose, and i wouldn't go look for it...and it wasn't even my fault the dog got out...but...she told me that i had a week...so last night the boy and i figured out something of a gameplan that was fairly dependent on his parents letting me stay at their house until i could get a place...but justin talked to his mom today and it was a no go....so now i'm back to square one...how does a jobless, carless, moneyless person find somewhere else to live in a week?...the only option i have is to get high enough where i don't care what she says to me and just go talk to her and see if i can get her to give me some months...like until march or whatever...justin is probably going to have to go back to staying at his house....which is going to suck so badly...he's really the only reason i'm still sane right now...i'm not going to be able to sleep...i won't have him next to me...at thats going to suck really really badly...but if thats what i'm going to have to do just to have a roof over my head, then thats what i'm going to have to do...and i won't be getting my license next week like i was going to...she told me that she's not taking me, not letting me use her car, and not helping with the fee like she said she was going to...so now i'm worse off then i was when i got out of the army...i'm not going to be able to get books or pay school fees for the spring semester probably...because i don't know where i'm going to get a job...nothing within walking distance is hiring...i might be able to get an overnight job at a grocery store...but then i'll be working from 11pm to 7am, going to school for 8, getting out around 1, coming home, sleeping till 5 or 6, then getting up, doing my homework, eating something, and going to work...for $8 an hour...at that rate i won't be able to afford a car, registration, and insurance until late summer...meanwhile i still will be living here, with my psychotic mother, trying not to kill her everytime i lay my eyes on her...i swear, i must have some really fucking shitty karma...because my whole life has been like this...take 2 steps forward, then get knocked 10 back...
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so, very soon...i may be homeless....last night my mom gave me a week to take all my stuff and get out of the house....a week....because she blamed me for her dog getting loose, and i wouldn't go look for it...and it wasn't even my fault the dog got out...but...she told me that i had a week...so last night the boy and i figured out something of a gameplan that was fairly dependent on his parents letting me stay at their house until i could get a place...but justin talked to his mom today and it was a no go....so now i'm back to square one...how does a jobless, carless, moneyless person find somewhere else to live in a week?...the only option i have is to get high enough where i don't care what she says to me and just go talk to her and see if i can get her to give me some months...like until march or whatever...justin is probably going to have to go back to staying at his house....which is going to suck so badly...he's really the only reason i'm still sane right now...i'm not going to be able to sleep...i won't have him next to me...at thats going to suck really really badly...but if thats what i'm going to have to do just to have a roof over my head, then thats what i'm going to have to do...and i won't be getting my license next week like i was going to...she told me that she's not taking me, not letting me use her car, and not helping with the fee like she said she was going to...so now i'm worse off then i was when i got out of the army...i'm not going to be able to get books or pay school fees for the spring semester probably...because i don't know where i'm going to get a job...nothing within walking distance is hiring...i might be able to get an overnight job at a grocery store...but then i'll be working from 11pm to 7am, going to school for 8, getting out around 1, coming home, sleeping till 5 or 6, then getting up, doing my homework, eating something, and going to work...for $8 an hour...at that rate i won't be able to afford a car, registration, and insurance until late summer...meanwhile i still will be living here, with my psychotic mother, trying not to kill her everytime i lay my eyes on her...i swear, i must have some really fucking shitty karma...because my whole life has been like this...take 2 steps forward, then get knocked 10 back...
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I give you love to carry you through.
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