lokischild

listening to papa roach
i hate that she has enough power over me to make me this upset....and i hate that i am dependent enough on her that when she decides to be fucking crazy, it affects my life....i wish i could just exise her from my life, like a tumor...just cut out the poison and throw it away....but i can't and she just keeps getting in the way and screwing everything up for me...why won't she just lay down and die already? or go away somewhere to live by herself and quit making everyone else miserable....jesus...something...she's too fucking crazy and i don't want to have to deal with it anymore...there's so much that i just wish i could say to her...but i can't right now....and it takes so much self restraint to stop myself from shutting her up....doesn't she see something wrong when not even anyone in her family wants to spend time with her? she has a guy she calls her boyfriend, but all she does is yell and scream at him, then use him....and she thinks this is a healthy relationship? is it wrong that i wished that her car would explode when she started it?

-=squish=-