it is unwise, and for me impossible to totally relax, and just let the flow of things take care of problems. but over the last few months that has been the lesson my world is trying to teach me.

i have hours that slip into days of worry about where moneys going to come from, and wondering if i'm doing enough, or the right thing. but it seems like as soon as i relax, i get a phone call, or i make the right phone call at the right time, and exactly the right level of good paying work falls into my lap, and i get to prolong this period of time that i've been savoring so intensely for the last 2 months.

i've been spending time with important new people in my life. who, in time will be revealed to whoever reads these blogs, and i've been writing. it has been suggested to me by friends, family, and people i've "met" on this site that i should write a book.

what qualifies me to write a book? nothing i can think of except the fact that i can't think of a reason not to...

so, i am, and i've already started.