loismustdie

well.....

i'm home...

the entire time i was in tennessee, it was hectic... 3 1/2 days is not enough time to do anything... plus, i spent the first 2 days dealing with how surreal it was to be there, and the last 2 days i spent miserable knowing that it wasn't for good...
did i talk my hometown up more than it deserved? yes... could it live up to my high expectations? no... but i want to be there anyway...
i got to see my best friend twice and that wasn't nearly enough... the last day i was there i couldn't get her on the phone... and i didn't get to see anyone from sg, cause there just wasn't enough fucking time... that's the problem with divorced parents... they want you all for themself...

but, anyway, i'm home... for now... my mom is giving us the money to get home and we're taking it... we've had enough of struggling... we'd never be able to save it before our lease is up anyway... and i hope that we'll be moving back this summer... preferably june, but we'll see... i need to get the hell out of this place... there is just nothing here for me... for us...

and right now, i am miserable...