Yesterday was undeniably the worst day of my life. Today is unfolding about the same, minus the cemetery, the long drive and the crazy family. I can't even speak without beginning to cry. I don't know how I'm going to work tonight...
For my Dad's headstone:
Embrace this joy, this pain
Don't miss this chance, it will not come again
You mean more than you may ever know
Don't linger- where the moss slowly grows
It really is like losing him all over again. The first time was hard enough that I just buried it all, way down were I thought it would never see the light again. Guess what... Not so. This time the pain and loss are just as sharp, and even more so because of the little daggers of guilt for turning my back on it for so long, leaving it in the dark to fester and rot.
I miss him so much. So very very much.
For my Dad's headstone:
Embrace this joy, this pain
Don't miss this chance, it will not come again
You mean more than you may ever know
Don't linger- where the moss slowly grows
It really is like losing him all over again. The first time was hard enough that I just buried it all, way down were I thought it would never see the light again. Guess what... Not so. This time the pain and loss are just as sharp, and even more so because of the little daggers of guilt for turning my back on it for so long, leaving it in the dark to fester and rot.
I miss him so much. So very very much.
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joker_:
It'll be okay.
polarbear:
Well,I hope you know that there are a number of people here that are willing to help you deal with this any time or any way that you need.........