so yea. .......................................i was right im not quite up there or pretty enough but god damnit im going to keep trying. i dont care if i dont fit the mold, i am determined that by the end of this year i will be an SG ( and by year i mean the year long hopefuls account) and then if not ill reapply. ive dreamt of this since bout 14 n im not bout to give up now tho i feel like crying. 
i will b strong, i will lose weight, and i will make this happen. just after i get over my bout of depression........... 
i will b strong, i will lose weight, and i will make this happen. just after i get over my bout of depression...........
Your set was just not a good debut for you as well.
And your boyfriend should not be taking photos of you. Find someone else. There are female photographers, you know.
And if your boyfriend can't handle someone seeing you naked while shooting a set, believe me you should probably reconsider shooting while you have a boyfriend.
SG is not a qualifier to be beautiful. So please quit thinking that.