Haven't added an update in a few days... should start by saying I am still happy, but that isn't why I haven't created a new entry. Work,work,work feels like all I am doing right now. Fortunately, for me, I really love what I do and think I am reasonably good at it as well. ND was calling me the LS Queen today, which cracks me up because it is both funny and true, but is also, why he wanted me on this contract. So the rate and work are both excellent. Although I am feeling very, very overwhelmed. So overwhelmed that I had to force myself to get out and exercise yesterday and today. As much as I love all the pay-offs from exercising sometimes it is just really hard to make myself do it. Nevertheless, I did and I am proud of myself. 6 miles! Yes, I said 6 miles... and really worth it, even if I did feel like throwing up by the time I got home. While I was out there sweating and getting some vitamin d, I was able to stop the whirlwind in mind and just take in the world around me. Most of what I observed was cool, sunlight, beautiful old well-manicured homes, turning leaves, acorns on the ground, but then I started noticing the people in the cars passing me. And thus begins today rant....
Normally I don't pay attention, but today I noticed other women giving me the look. You know the one, we've all gotten it, and its a cross between jealousy and disapproval... So I started thinking about 'the look' and how often I receive it. The more I thought about it the more I realized I get the look frequently, too frequently. Normally I don't even see 'the look', but for some reason today I saw it and made me want to scream 'Fuck Off', 'Get Off Your Fat Ass & Do Something', or 'Worry About Yourself Bitch' to every single one of those women. There have been many rights of passage into womanhood that I have enjoyed or suffered through, but induction into the Sisterhood of the Perpetually Unhappy, err, no thanks. I will never be one of those women, small-minded, critical, disapproving, jealous, and generally miserable... the kind of women that make me embarrassed of being a woman! nuff said
Normally I don't pay attention, but today I noticed other women giving me the look. You know the one, we've all gotten it, and its a cross between jealousy and disapproval... So I started thinking about 'the look' and how often I receive it. The more I thought about it the more I realized I get the look frequently, too frequently. Normally I don't even see 'the look', but for some reason today I saw it and made me want to scream 'Fuck Off', 'Get Off Your Fat Ass & Do Something', or 'Worry About Yourself Bitch' to every single one of those women. There have been many rights of passage into womanhood that I have enjoyed or suffered through, but induction into the Sisterhood of the Perpetually Unhappy, err, no thanks. I will never be one of those women, small-minded, critical, disapproving, jealous, and generally miserable... the kind of women that make me embarrassed of being a woman! nuff said