liz_marie1222

So, hopefully all this shit with my ex-kinda-still roomate has been fixed. I HOPE.

I don't know what to do, this is all so confusing. I believe to the core of my heart everything she says, but who can deny it looks really fucking fishy when she doesn't return my phone calls for two weeks? When she says, "I will pay the rent every month." I believe her, but when I don't know if it'll be coming a week before or a week after when the rent is actually due, I get scared. I don't know if it'll be coming in time to save me from being fucked over as far as money goes. What do I do about this? She doesn't like to communicate things to me and just wants me to have faith that she will pay me. Well I do have faith but what I don't have is the financial resources to carry me a week after rent is due on my faith that I know she'll get rent to me when I'm already $300 in the hole

This is so hard. How do I communicate this to someone that I love without making them feel I don't trust them?

I don't just want communication as far as when the rent check is going to come in. I want to know how she is doing, how her parents are fucking up her head, etc. I hate how she clams up and just won't tell anyone anything till things are so bad that nothing is fixable. How do you help someone in that situation? I love my roomie, and although most ppl say a friend would never do this to another friend, things don't really change how I feel. I am incapable of not being there for her, even if she doesn't want it, because I know she needs people that believe in her. ROOMIE, I BELIEVE IN YOU.