liz_marie1222

Hey, well this weekend didn't go too well at all. Friday I sat at home because I was going to go out but then my kitties figured out how to open the patio doors and were running about outside in the mud. So I finally rounded them all up and then I had to clean them and then the apartment was full of mud so I had to clean that too.

Saturday, well...Saturday was fucked up. My roomie (who will be joining soon) and I went to Eric's to party. I drank all night but didn't get drunk for some fucked up reason and I for sure didn't get laid as all of the men decided to go across the street to party with a whole bunch of 45 year olds...which was cool b/c they were nice and fun. But the whole night while all of us 20-21 year old hot sexy women were hanging out with all of these men they were all trying to get on this 45 year old lady with one of those asses from the 80's (you know the long flat long kind stuffed into a tight pair of leather pants) with gap teeth and a mullet, and they were all obsessed with how hot she was. Fuck dude! So Mr. Stupid-fucker Eric (the guy who was supposed to fuck me that night) was the God-damned drunk ring leader and was all feeling this lady and shit...it grossed me out...then the 45 year old biker dude decided he was going to kick Eric's ass for feeling up his woman...So guess who had to be the nice friend and put stupid-fucker-Eric to bed? So I brought him home, and put him to bed and then the dumb ass was all about me...Like "oh, I can't fuck some nasty 45 year old woman with a gap tooth and a mullet, so I guess you can be second best and I'll fuck you now" Can we say, "lowered Elisa's self-esteem!" I gots nothing against fucking older women...what I gots something against is choosing an older woman with a mullet and gap teeth over me. She wasn't hot at all and wow, if men want that over me I just feel like a steaming pile of dog poo.

So needless to say, I didn't get drunk, I didn't get laid..However...Jason (my ex and roomie) was more than willing to fuck me. But how can I fuck someone that I feel emotionally attached to when I know he's not emotionally attached to me anymore? Sex with him is special, it's not just sex, but to him, that's what it is....JUST SEX. So I decided to refrain from that because it just hurts too bad. He doesn't understand at all and that makes me sad...

Sorry for all you kids that read this that I just whine all the time. My keyboard at home is still broken...so I won't be on at home much. I am fed up with work and am ready to just stop going all together. I know I can't do that tho...I have bills to pay...but fuck..everyday is harder and harder.

Soo...good news, I go to the doctor today to get depression drugs...I am fucking praying that my insurance will cover it as I still have a $2,000 medical bill at that hospital which I haven't been able to pay any on...Is is wierd that I'm more excited to go to the doctor today just because I will get to leave work for a little while as opposed to it actually might help me...ugh.