Wow, so this weekend was pretty shitty. I got my car fixed by my uncle and only had to pay for parts so that was the only good part of my weekend. Thanks Uncle Rick!
I colored my hair on Friday, and I fucking hate it. The girl that did it did not understand the concept of red and black. Instead she decided red, small almost not there streaks of black and some ugly nasty brown color that would not be seen naturally or unnaturally on any head in the world. FUCK!
On Saturday, while my uncle was working on my car, I had to go shopping with my cousin, who just had a baby a year ago. So while she shopped I got to watch little Kyana. Which was ok, because she is a little sweetie, but Melissa never ever takes responsibility for her kid which pisses me off because her parents end up always taking care of her.
So Melissa and I are shopping, fine and dandy, except that I have no money and can't shop and little Melissa-size 1 I might add....is sitting there ranting and raving about how large her butt is, when her butt and thighs are very tiny thank you very much. She even goes so far as to go into the underwear section of JC Penny and try on some of those old lady shorts..you know, the ones that are supposed to tuck everything in so tight you can't even breathe. And then she comes out whining because she couldn't breathe or move in them (no shit sherlock).
So Elisa feels like a humongous big piece of lard at this point. So I bring my very very large, and winter weight gained ass home that night and go out to the bars with no money w/my "friends" and stand there and feel bored.
Sunday: Sunday involved my "friend" (with whom I have been having a lot of sex with lately and spending a lot of time with, cuddling, hanging out, kissing, etc.) Well this friend of mine decided to invite me over to watch movies which was fine and dandy and while watching movies we cuddled which I love so I was happy. but then a girl that he met at the strip club calls and he invites her over. Well she comes over and he tosses me aside and starts to cuddle up with her. They are laying on each other right next to me and so I'm just a little miffed. What a nice and lovely "friend". I mean I don't care who he fucks or cuddles with when I'm not there, but it seems that I'm only good enough for him when no one else is around and I'm fed up. He can kiss me and cuddle me and fuck me and tell me how great and sweet I am, only when he was rejected by his fuck of choice for the night. I would think that if you are trying to fuck more than a couple people, that you would avoid inviting them both over at the same time, but I guess he just figures i'll be good, not tell the other girl he is macking on, and just be ok with it. WTVR, this is my fault anyway, for letting him do this to me. I'm just a back burner fuck, not nearly as hot, as fun, or as good a fuck as the people he would really want.
After this weekend my self esteem is fucking flying through the roof!! UGH, NOT!
I feel icky, unwanted, alone and stupid.
I colored my hair on Friday, and I fucking hate it. The girl that did it did not understand the concept of red and black. Instead she decided red, small almost not there streaks of black and some ugly nasty brown color that would not be seen naturally or unnaturally on any head in the world. FUCK!
On Saturday, while my uncle was working on my car, I had to go shopping with my cousin, who just had a baby a year ago. So while she shopped I got to watch little Kyana. Which was ok, because she is a little sweetie, but Melissa never ever takes responsibility for her kid which pisses me off because her parents end up always taking care of her.
So Melissa and I are shopping, fine and dandy, except that I have no money and can't shop and little Melissa-size 1 I might add....is sitting there ranting and raving about how large her butt is, when her butt and thighs are very tiny thank you very much. She even goes so far as to go into the underwear section of JC Penny and try on some of those old lady shorts..you know, the ones that are supposed to tuck everything in so tight you can't even breathe. And then she comes out whining because she couldn't breathe or move in them (no shit sherlock).
So Elisa feels like a humongous big piece of lard at this point. So I bring my very very large, and winter weight gained ass home that night and go out to the bars with no money w/my "friends" and stand there and feel bored.
Sunday: Sunday involved my "friend" (with whom I have been having a lot of sex with lately and spending a lot of time with, cuddling, hanging out, kissing, etc.) Well this friend of mine decided to invite me over to watch movies which was fine and dandy and while watching movies we cuddled which I love so I was happy. but then a girl that he met at the strip club calls and he invites her over. Well she comes over and he tosses me aside and starts to cuddle up with her. They are laying on each other right next to me and so I'm just a little miffed. What a nice and lovely "friend". I mean I don't care who he fucks or cuddles with when I'm not there, but it seems that I'm only good enough for him when no one else is around and I'm fed up. He can kiss me and cuddle me and fuck me and tell me how great and sweet I am, only when he was rejected by his fuck of choice for the night. I would think that if you are trying to fuck more than a couple people, that you would avoid inviting them both over at the same time, but I guess he just figures i'll be good, not tell the other girl he is macking on, and just be ok with it. WTVR, this is my fault anyway, for letting him do this to me. I'm just a back burner fuck, not nearly as hot, as fun, or as good a fuck as the people he would really want.
After this weekend my self esteem is fucking flying through the roof!! UGH, NOT!
I feel icky, unwanted, alone and stupid.
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