liz_marie1222

So work is going ok. I feel that since I am the only woman manager I am getting less priviledges than all the other men. We are all suppossed to have keys to the store and thus far I have not gotten a set and they don't intend to make me one. So that kinda pisses me off. I'm more like a higher paid cashier and bagger girl because that's all they let me do all day. Ohwell, it's a job and it pays ok.

I'm so flipping bored. I really want some god damned weed but I honestly don't know where to get it. Isn't that pathetic? Ohwell...I'm having a few self esteem/I hate my big ass issues. But they come and go. I think that I am going to attempt to make thanksgiving dinner myself being as I am alone with my boyfriend for thanksgiving. Too bad I hate to cook and I'm really bad at it.

I am lonely, I need some friends. The only person I feel like is my true friend is fucking seven hours away and doesn't feel like coming to live here. Ohwell, tis the way of life. I have friends but they are so god damned superficial and wrapped up in their own lives. They are also too good at making plans getting me all excited and then cancelling them an hour before happening, leaving me alone and depressed with nothing to do for the night.

I am kinda a whiner eh? I'm not always this whiny I swear. Usually I act real upbeat and fun. I Swear! It's just life has been gettin me down for quite some time and I'm hoping that soon it will decide to fucking stop messing with my head so much.

I feel really stupid. You know I used to be so smart. And I kind of knew it too. But now, wow. I don't really know what happened. All my knowledge, common sense, and intellect just went out the window leaving me with a brain of mashed potatoes, which by the way is all I think about b/c I fucking love mashed potatoes. Alright...well time to leave and go to bed. I have to get up for work tomorrow and I must say that being sick for a whole month has really got me tired lately.

Ta ta...

*hugs to all*


Liz