lixir

Dear Zelda,
It's so nice to be home!
<3
You know, after going to LA, I found my town ain't so bad
I mean, I don't know if I wanna live here all my life, but I'm not cut out for the city.
It's just...I'd rather live in a place where people are more concerned with other things. LA is the place where you pursue dreams that have to do with self-gratification.
I want to be a holistic doctor.
I don't want to REALLY be a model.
I mean, I love SG, and I'll stay with them as long as they'll have me.
But...
I think I have other goals to work towards, that don't involve me being on the cover a magazine. Don't get me wrong...it's cool and it would be awesome if it happened.
But that wouldn't make me proud of myself.
I--honestly....
I don't see the big deal.
Everyone in LA was so welcoming and soooo nice...
but at the same time, it just seemed like I didn't quite fit in.
I mean I was only there for three days,,,but I don't know...
It felt like I was this flounder....swimming with dolphins.
okay...bad metaphor, but do you get what I mean?
I mean....again
like...
what the big deal?
It seems like a lot if a big deal...
aaand I mean, I don't really care...
so I don't really get it.
I'm not trying to rip on anyone in particular, like I said, everyone was supra nice....
But there's still this air of this knowledgeable-elitist mentality, and I mean, everyone in LA gives me that vibe.
My uncle especially...
But it's not bad...but like I said, I don't care about stuff like that.
So I don't think I'll be making LA my home in this life.
But I still want to visit Portland.....