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lixir

Nicosia, Cyprus

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Tuesday Jan 08, 2013

Jan 8, 2013
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UUHHHH
Dear Zelda~
Money problems suck.
I'm trying to keep up with this law of attraction thing...
like...
"I HAVE SOOO MUCH MONEY! I HAVE $500 IN MY BANK ACCOUNT RIGHT NOW! I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO SPEND IT FIRST! I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL! I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED FOR MY CAR! MY STOMACH IS FULL AND SATISFIED! I DON'T EVEN NEED TO DRIVE OUT-OF-COUNTY FOR CIGS BECAUSE I HAVE A CARTON RIGHT UNDER MY BED!"
Yeah, I guess the key to the law of attraction is to just be as sarcastic as possible.
It's just hard, you know?
It's so hard to believe I have all these things, when the truth is...
I mean, shit dude.
I got into modeling so I could pay my tuition fees, and while I am so grateful it got me a free vacation, it hasn't gotten me a dime.
I mean...
"I AM THE MOST SUCCESSFUL SUICIDE GIRL THERE IS! SUICIDE GIRLS HAS MADE ME SOOOOO RICH! RICH RICH RICH! ....AND FAMOUS! SUICIDE GIRLS HAS KEPT ME SO BUSY WITH HOW
RICH
AND
FAMOUS
I AM...THAT I'VE HARDLY HAD ANY TIME TO DRIVE MY BRAND NEW BRIGHT GREEN VW BUG CONVERTIBLE!"
On the other hand, I'm driving a 96 honda accord, and while I love this car to death, I'm always worried it's just gunna break down on me.
I applied for a grant for school, and even though I qualify, I still need to pay the school $700 for what I owe them now...so I can't even register.
No registration
No grant.
What a fucked up cycle.
All the while, I'm suppose to be pretending and believing that I have all the riches the world can offer me.
That is one of the most difficult things to do.
You might as well bring me to a Justin Bieber concert and expect me to dance around.
Keeping a positive attitude is probably the most constructive thing you can possibly do.
I really believe in the law of attraction, and I believe things
WILL
get better as long as I can keep believing it will.
I'm just saying...
it's so hard to sometimes....
I mean, everyone has a sob story. Plenty of people go to bed hungry, and weight their pennies between getting gas in their car, or getting that pack of cigarettes.
And most of us don't even want sympathy unless it comes in a card with a nice little check.
I'm just venting.
I know I'm getting down and having a shitty attitude, and it doesn't make things much better.
I guess I just get off on this romantic idea of this little lost girl without anything in her wallet, just trying her best to survive in the crazy, fucked up, materialistic world.
Like my girl, Audrey, from Breakfast at Tiffany's.
I know how she feels.
I'm not Lixir, I'm not Audrey, either. I don't know who I am. I'm just like my cat. We're just a couple of no-name-slobs, we belong to nobody and nobody belongs to us...we don't even belong to each other.
richard_:
Im with you. Even though i can barely walk, and everything seems to be going against me.. Fuck that. Head down, chin up. Cause whatevers gonna happen is gonna happen, whether we were positive while it was happening or not. So Fuck you fate, Im going out with a smile. biggrin
Jan 8, 2013
rollnrob:
Cutie
Jan 8, 2013

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