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So the Suicide Girl website is sending me to LA on the 10th.
I'm really excited to get out of this cold weather!
I feel like the law of attraction was really on my side with this one.
After I applied for SG thought to myself, "what if they liked me so much, they sent me to LA?"
and, what what????
!!!!!
Goin to LA!
Well, not to be pompous, but I'd really like to shove that in the faces of the girls back in high school who all gave me such a hard time...
I'm grateful for this...
truly, I am!
but, at the same time, I'm not going to take this model-thing for real...I mean, it's cool, and I love Suicide Girls, and I'm sticking with SG...
But I don't think I'd model for anything else.
I just don't like the possibility of me being a catalyst towards this female-suppression...
I mean, that what it is...in all directions....
Look at Cosmopolitan...
It's a women's magazine, and what the hell is written in it?!?
-how to please your man
-how to cook great tacos
-lose 10 pounds in two weeks
-what men love
-how to make cookies from scratch
-what men hate
-how to wear your make up the way men like
-how to do your hair the way men like
-how to take a shit the way men like.
Fuckin A man!
And don't get me wrong, I think pinup could be looked at as a form of art....
but in this society; where some things deserve to be called art, are usually called
'WEIRD'
or (in the SG case...)
'SOFTCORE'
like...holy shit, dude.
For real, I'm sorry, but I don't want to symbolize some sort of heavily exploited idea that women are objects.
It's fucking wrong.
Just like pot being illegal
Just like how mainstream music holds no emotional value
Just like gay marriage is illegal
Just like how ferrets are not allowed in certain states, and pit bulls are considered, 'viscous dogs.'
It's 2013 for fucks-sake!
Can we stop with this unnecessary bullshit, please?
If the world could look at a beautiful woman without wanting to whip it out and slooge on their keyboard, things would be different.
I want to be a muse,
I want to be a piece of art...
I want to be respected and admired...
No, not because I have boobs...but because I think all women should be respected and admired to some degree;
I mean, in the oldest religious cultures, women were looked at sacred celestial beings.
They were so valuable, they needed to be protected and respected.
PFFFT
and now look at the world...
I went to an ATM today, and the ATM was in this futuristic little building; all on it's own. You need to swipe ur debit card, to go into this room, and (again) use your debit card.
After retrieving my cash, I went to the store for bread and TP and I went through the self-checkout line.
What's happening?
During Xmas, it's a time of gifts and peace and love...
but no one looks at you, no one smiles at you, everyone is irritated or in a rush.
Everyone kinda brushes you off.
Even when it's not the holidays.....
And I don't get it.
It kinda looks like the whole future is moving backwards...
Yes yes, I know this is a long bitchy-sounding rant, but do you see what I mean here? I mean....
Shouldn't we be more united than this?