livinthrumonday

lonely drunkeness thoughts

i hate being alone...
what i want more than anything is to be loved and thought of by others...
i want people to like me for who i am and not what i look like...
i wanna see my face in people's eyes...
i want a hug when i'm sad...
and a kiss just because...
i'm more then just some sex toy...
but less then a woman...
i devalue your thoughts and beliefs...
and rip your heart out without even thinking twice...
i dont wanna cry over people anymore...
i wanna smile when they say goodbye...
i want a true friend...
but all mine step on my face...
if you understood me...
i would steal your heart...
i hurt people to watch them cry...
and hurt myself just to become stronger...
if i can't punch you in the face during sex...
your not worthy...
i want to be beautiful...
and have people gauk over me...
i want them to say "who is that girl?"...
thne actually find out...
i wanna be in a magazine...
and join the circus...
i can put my foot behind my head...
and shatter dreams like you couldn't imagine...
i have a crush on my neighbor cuz he's shy...
and obnoxiously loud...
i've always wanted to fuck the kid that was like a brother to me...
just to see what it's like...
but im grossed out by it...


i geuss im done for now

i'll come back on later