livingdeadkirst

feelings.....
anger
frustration
sad
depressed
alone.

I have so many words inside of me that I want to put on paper....that I want to come out...that I need to come out. however they stay deep inside of me. I won't allow them to show their face nor do I wish for myself to realise why they are held down deep....inside the depths of my misery.

it is not until you are surrounded by silence that you realise there is nothing. alone and hidden from everything and everyone. destined to stay down in the depths...under lock and key so that you are not seen for who you really are, for who you long to be. made sure that your mask is secured fast when facing the world, to ensure that family...friends are not humiliated by who you are because it is not suitable...it is not accepted.

criticism is all you receive when the mask is removed and immediately it is demanded that the mask be re-fastened. don't let anyone see you...make sure you take the orders. don't make a fool out of yourself. you just look ridiculous.

you know what...FUCK YOU and your orders.
FUCK YOU for trying to repress who I am.
I am who I am.
I will live how I wish to live.
I will dress how I wish to dress.
I will be who I want to be.

if you can't accept it, too fucking bad for you.
if you won't respect it, then that is your problem.
your mind is closed and always has been.
fucking deal with the problem...it is now not mine....it is yours!