littlequeenie

Wow! Heartbreak sucks!
I haven't been outta bed since Saturday night. I tried going to work on Monday morning, but I was a mess and I couldn't keep it together so I came home at lunch. Back to bed. I called in sick to work today. More bed rest.

I'm much better now. I did have a talk with *bass player* earlier today. It seems he didn't even realize that he hurt my feelings or he even knew what was going on. He assured me that it wasn't me. I didn't do or say anything wrong. He said that he's been closed in lately and that he hasn't been talking to anyone.
It's good to know that we can still be friends and that this entire thing was just all in my head.
I feel silly for getting emotional over a guy. That's not my style. This whole falling in love thing is weird.

He is the first guy in five years that I have allowed myself to have -more than friends- feelings towards and allowed myself to open up with him. Love is one crazy thing, kids.

So, while I'm still an emotion-ball I'm better. I'm going to work tomorrow. Maybe even pull in some overtime too.
I'm backing off for a week or so with the *bass player*. I'm gonna give him time and space. I'll probably see him once before he leaves again for the eastcoast leg of the tour. Also, I still plan on going to Kansas City, Mo. to catch his show (that's kind of already a done-deal since airline tix have already been purchased anyway). However for the next week or two, I just need to focus on ME.

I think I am buying a new car. I'll probably take delivery on it at the end of this week or early next week. I kind of hope that it will be the end of this week. This weekend is The Dexateen's show in Knoxville and it would be nice to see how the new ride does on a road trip.

Tonight I'm super stoked for: Dan Sartain! Hellz Yeah!
Flight of the Finch - Dan Sartain


Speaking of music......there are now several bands that I can't listen to at the moment because *bass player* is either in the band, has been on tour and played with them, or is related to them, or just best bros.
I hope that in a few weeks I'll be back to listening to all these cats.

Conor Oberst & The Mystic Valley Band, Bright Eyes, A.A. Bondy, Maria Taylor, Jenny Lewis, Rilo Kiley and The Felice Brothers.
*hahaha all of these cats are on my top 100 played on iTunes*


So....that being said........I NEED some new tunes to vibe with.........SUGGESTIONS?

Today's Soundtrack:
*There is no theme, rhyme or reason to this playlist and it jumps all over the place*

Sheets - Damien Jurado


Closer - Kings of Leon
*I'm dying to see Kings of Leon live* I saw them several years ago, but I wasn't really into them at the time. What a Mistake. This is my favorite song from the latest album.
Stranded in this spooky town. Stop lights are swaying and the phone lines are down. Floor is crackling cold. She took my heart, I think she took my soul.


Dark End of The Street - Cat Power
If I could sing like anybody in the world I would want to sing like this woman (okay, this woman and maybe Etta James)


Shimmer & Shine - Ben Harper and Relentless7


Wonderlust King - Gogol Bordello
Just because Gogol Bordello always makes me happy.