im so bored with my life.
i feel so unsatisfied.
I want my relationship with david to move up to the next leve; (ie: living together) and I DON'T feel like waiting patiently for that day to come. I feel like, why wait when we're gonna be together forever??
I hate my job. I hate working in general. I just wanna stay home, have babies, clean the house, and cook dinner. I want a home and a dog and a family.
I want to get out of wisconsin. i hate it here, but i dont know if taking my child away from her grandparents would be a good idea. im destined to be a humble, midwest girl forever.
So i sit. And pretend I'm good, when really, i hate sleeping alone, eating alone, and everything else alone. The company of a 4 year old just isnt stimulating enough for me.
I dont expect anyone to understand this, because i dont think anyone is in my situation. My daughter is always with me (no breaks EVER actually), and yet i feel i am so alone. Walking in circles. Waiting for everyone to catch up (especially my man). I'm running out of patience.
I'm only 22, but I've been grown up for so long now that i'm ready to move up. everyone else my age is still out partying every night without a care in the world. And I'm a homebody ready to have a family of my own. is that so much to ask??
how do i approach this topic to David??
i feel so unsatisfied.
I want my relationship with david to move up to the next leve; (ie: living together) and I DON'T feel like waiting patiently for that day to come. I feel like, why wait when we're gonna be together forever??
I hate my job. I hate working in general. I just wanna stay home, have babies, clean the house, and cook dinner. I want a home and a dog and a family.
I want to get out of wisconsin. i hate it here, but i dont know if taking my child away from her grandparents would be a good idea. im destined to be a humble, midwest girl forever.
So i sit. And pretend I'm good, when really, i hate sleeping alone, eating alone, and everything else alone. The company of a 4 year old just isnt stimulating enough for me.
I dont expect anyone to understand this, because i dont think anyone is in my situation. My daughter is always with me (no breaks EVER actually), and yet i feel i am so alone. Walking in circles. Waiting for everyone to catch up (especially my man). I'm running out of patience.
I'm only 22, but I've been grown up for so long now that i'm ready to move up. everyone else my age is still out partying every night without a care in the world. And I'm a homebody ready to have a family of my own. is that so much to ask??
how do i approach this topic to David??
I just want a girl to like me, it has been so long since I have had a girl like me.
I hate my job to, I don't hate all jobs, I would love to do something in the arts.
You will get out some day, don't lose hope. I don't know if I want to move out of KY or not, I probable should some day.
I always do everything alone, when I go out I go out alone, when I eat I eat alone and that is the way it has almost always been, people don't like me.
When I'm at work I feel the most alone.
That isn't to much to ask.
I wouldn't dump all of this on him at one time, you need to slowly talk about it, you don't want to overwhelm him.
I'm not confusing, if I found a great girl I wouldn't mind living with her, but when your not one of the cool kids, and people don't like you it makes you want to find some one and keep them because your afraid you will never find some one to like you again.
I'm sure he will come around some day and want to get married.