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Tonight is a whiskey night, I think. I've been a good girl. I need to go hunt down some trouble. Trouble, where are ye? What form will ye take tonight? I challenge ye to a duel, and I don't really care who wins. Last time I went looking for trouble some dude got his rib broken. It was all good-natured fun, of course.
Tomorrow night...
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digdug:
I grew up in Indianapolis. You can go piss on my parent's lawn if you want. Just continuing on that whole trouble thing, not that I have any particular antipathy toward my parents or anything. You could also TP my high school, leave a bag of flaming crap on my ex-girlfriend's doorstep and maybe even throw a brick through the window of a former employer or two. See why I never go back?
inknerd:
thank you smile your pictures are cute too! you feeling better yet? im getting there but nights of drinking aren't helping.. lol
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I don't belong in offices. All the lightbulbs flicker here and the air is so dry. I bring disaster into organized environments. What were they thinking? To hire ME as a secretary, even just for a week? To allow me to answer their phones and send their faxes and percolate their coffee? Haven't they seen my room, the carpet of discarded clothes, the forgotten post-it...
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joyrider:
sooo busy lately. sorry i've been scarce. hope we can talk soon. life should get less complicated by mid-next week.
joyrider:
i think i just tempted the fates.
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There's nothing for me here anymore. I cringe when I type that tired-out line. I'm sick of the fully stocked refrigerator and the devastatingly quiet dishwashing machine. The soft carpet. Remote controls. The things I'll miss when I'm gone, but never would admit. Can't admit. Because I'm building myself as something different this time around.
"You are the most self-reliant woman I've ever met." He...
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chaosmonkey:
I hope you haven't gone anywhere yet. I'd miss you more if I didn't get a chance to say g'bye before you left.
freyja__:
wow, talk about six degrees of seperation.
i take it you went to high school in indiana? (if i remember right)

thanks for stopping by.
your journal entry is so resounding in my heart.

lots of love, strength, and courage to you.
xoxo
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Had some success last night in dreaming. Found that falling asleep with someone's name on my lips drew him into the fabric of my dream. I'll spare uinterested parties the details, but it was quite pretty, despite an embarrassing situation early on.
Gaining some control over my dreams brings confidence, which helps bring even more awareness into my them. It's a nice cycle, better than...
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tororo:
My mother died when i was a child. Sometimes after that, I woke up in the middle of night, remembering a dream I just had she was in. For five years, I kept a notebook near to my bed for keeping a record of every dream I was able to remember when waking up. I never felt i could succeed in gaining control over them... but discovered how much things may be drawn unexpectedly "into the fabric of our dreams" . I gained also the conviction that dreams are friendly things, as strange or uncanny as they could be.
martyr13:
i hope all is well for you lady.
i didn't hear from you..and it seems like there was good reason. i take no offense.
hahahahah
keep it real, under the stars, in your folks' backyard..
doing training for the road.
reach me if you need me.
the invite always stands and i know you are leaving soon.

find your way to where you need to be, it all gets better and better.

mark
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Last night I found an old credit card of mine with $500 credit on it. Why, god, why? I treated myself to a little online shopping spree. I nearly bought night vision goggles, but my friend stepped in at the exact right moment and told me that night vision goggles don't work nearly as well as they do in the movies. Damn.
Today I'm writing...
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sixsixty:
i wonder how you will say my name?
cypher:
good 2 talk with you last night. sexy girl. backyard star sleeper.
lucky me.
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I'd like to buy a relatively small (one gallon or less) quantity of hydrofluoric acid. Any ideas where I might find this?
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timmy:
Just get some gasoline, kitty litter, and frozen concentrated orange juice then ....
cypher:
very.sexy.profile.picture.thankyou.
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Maybe I should shut off my computer and step outside this afternoon?
Oh, yuck. It's craptacular.
I'm fasting. I decided to give my digestive system a little break for the next few days. How come my fridge has to be filled with such delicious food for once? Stuffed green olives...copious amounts of yummy cheese...and those perfect little tomatoes. Damnit. The first day of a fast...
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martyr13:
and oh...
i was listening to this as per usual..
jawbreaker that is...
and this hit me...you should read it..
again...if it is forgotten to you..
being as your trip and its reasons..
but i like it..
....
"it gets lonliest at nightdown at the liquor store beneath the neon sky. my moonlight. six am the floor comes alive with lice. the pans dried up so tight with hardened beans. we're hungry. so i lean on you sometimes just to see your still there. your feet can't take the weight of one, much less two. we hit concrete. how where we born into this mess? i know i painted you a prettier picture baby. we were run out on a rail. fell from the wagon to the night train. i kissed the bottle. i should have been kissing you. you wake up to an empty night with tears for two. cigarettes they fill the gapsin our empty days, in our broken teeth. we're jonesing. say mister can you spare a dime? some change could make a change. could buy some time, some freedom or an ear to hear my story. its all i've got. my fiction beats the hell out of my truth. a palm upturned burnt blue. don't call it sunburn. you've been shaking on the job. just one drink ahead of your past. there's a white light coming up. you draw the blinds an hope it'll pass......."

any way...
it made me think of you...and all the progress you are making...
and it took me back to the road...as is often so nice...
all my love and support as ever....
mark
liquid29:
Mr. Show.
Rule.
Good luck with the fasting...I remain ever dedicated to a nice little percentage of food that cannot possibly be any good for you.
I will yet prove you can have it and live forever....
smile
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A better world is possible. This is becoming my mantra.
There is so much clarity in healing. And sitting under a needle for four hours.
"This is therapy you're my therapist," I told my tattoo artist today. "I want to feel this every day."
This feels like a deep tissue massage from the Keebler elves.
It's like one hundred butterflies flutering simultaneously against my skin....
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zona:
i dont think that i'll be able to make it to d.c. since i am starting school on sept 30th. are you going? id love to visit there one day. is that where you're at? btw, hot profile picture!
bailey:
i think i have the same unders as the ones yo are wearing in your photo. i like calling em unders. i dont know why.

make your way to boston and we can eat cookies and prance around in our unders, talking talking talking.
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I sat outside in the rain at 4 this morning. Watched the storm roll in. Felt it break over my face and arms.
Mmmmm...that was the best suggestion I've followed in ages.
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apathy_activist:
A good rain can be one of the most theraputic things. I don't know anything about the science of it, but with the right weather there's electricity in the air. It's the same thing that drives the animals and insects to shelter. But for us, it's probably best if you just go and run in it.

A good thunder rain can make my skin hum.
martyr13:
*blush*
as i do so often...
sometime i am the bringer of the worst ideas in history...
but every here and the...i may have a good one or two...
i cannot give out the words to express exactly what my thoughts are at the moment...
but i am wasted and they would probably be in poor taste,........
but you rock it really hard.....
and thats all i'll say about that..
peace lady...
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I just erased my long-winded journal entry about exchanging my delicious, comfortable bed for my scratchy sleeping bag and train filth and the ocassional living room floor, for an exciting change of pace. I said something about my mattress being like a pair of enormous breasts that I snuggle up to again and again and again. Mmmmmmm...
Anyway, I'm looking forward to put my theories...
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joyrider:
you've got space on a futon in portland. you know that though.
stewd:
And of course, if small towns of Eastern CT happen to be along the way, look me up! And don't forget I'm only a few short hours from NYC...