littlebabyjesus

too many words...

This gravity, it weighs me down
It feels just like an anchor
This heavy smoke, it burns my eyes
It feels just like a lie
This thing called love, it sucks me in
It feels just like an arrow

Try not to speak, see what happens
Try not to see, see what happens
Try not to hear, see what happens

This lack of sleep, it's self imposed
It feels just like a sickness
This crown of thorns, it serves me well
It feels just like mental jewelry
This addiction, it hurts my heart
It feels just like a dagger

Try not to move, see what happens
Try not to breath, see what happens
Try not to sleep, see what happens
Try not to think

Try not to speak, see what happens
Try not to see, see what happens
Try not to hear, see what happens
Try not to feel

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There are things that we will never do
There are places that we will never go
There are people that we will never meet
There are foods that we will never eat
There are times that we will never sleep
There are tears that we will never weep
There are songs that we will never sing
There are bells that we will never ring
There are lips that we will never kiss
There are faces that we will never miss
There are that we will never
There are that we will never
This much I know

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sometimes

sometimes, i get panic attacks.
sometimes, you'll hurt my feelings, but i'll never tell you about it.
sometimes, you torture me.
sometimes, i'll pretend like i don't care.
sometimes, i just don't care.
sometimes, i drink more than i lead you to believe.
sometimes, i let the truth slip out.
sometimes, it's an accident.
sometimes, i want to believe you.
sometimes, you make it kind of hard.
sometimes, the simplest answer, is the correct one.
sometimes, it's not.
sometimes, i contradict myself.
sometimes, i'm too truthful.
sometimes, i'm not truthful enough.
sometimes, i wish my heart was unbreakable.
sometimes, it breaks.
sometimes, i want to tell you.
sometimes, i think you know.
sometimes, you take my breath away.
sometimes, i don't get you.
sometimes, i really don't get you.
sometimes, i do.
sometimes, things are complicated.
sometimes, i wish they weren't.
sometimes, i've had better days.
sometimes, i fall apart.
sometimes, i love you.
always, you're on my mind, sometimes.

sometimes part II

sometimes, i am sorry i'm so truthful.
sometimes, i am untruthful.
sometimes, i hate myself.
sometimes, i wish i could take back things i have said.
sometimes, the things i say, are just words, no more, no less.
sometimes, my words hurt.
sometimes, they hurt me.
sometimes, my feelings get the best of me.
sometimes, i don't want to feel, anything, ever.
sometimes, i wish you were here.
sometimes, i wish we never met. another untruth.
sometimes, i let the whiskey do the talking.
sometimes, the whiskey should just shut it's mouth.
sometimes, i have dreams about you, nice ones.
sometimes, my dreams feel so real, that i don't want to go back to reality.
sometimes, i want you to tell me what you really think of me.
sometimes, i'm afraid of what you might say.
sometimes, i know what you'll say anyways.
sometimes, i don't think you'll ever know what you mean to me.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry that i'm weak.
i'm sorry that i'm a fool.
i'm sorry if i hurt you.
the last thing i ever wanted was to make you hate me.

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Love me, lavish me with your attention
I will not do the same, but I'll make you wish I did
Give me presents, I'll grace you with my presence
I am better than you, I am a big deal

I am loved by many, but crave the attention of no one

I am a gold digger, digging inside my brain
For golden words, to lay down on this page
So I can sing you to sleep, with my golden voice
I am gold, I am lost in my own metaphor

Give me everything I ask for, I give nothing in return

I am the reason you come home every night
I am your reason for living
I am the reason that the dogs won't bite
I am your protector
I am the reason for the sun and the moon
I am your starry night
I am the reason that you'll come home soon
I am your bottle of booze

I am the most impressive person you will meet

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I'm in like with you
I want to sleep all over you
Give me one good reason not to
And I smile because I know you do too