litaslildemon

::deep breath:: ahhhh much better

So after the last whiny blah blah bullshit post, I've felt much better. I joined ModelMayhem to search for some female photographers in the area, and found a two who seem like they might be just what I'm looking for. I'm supposed to meet up with them for coffee in the next week or two to talk, put together ideas, etc.

I got another letter from another site saying they wanted me to model for them, but I am not going to take them up on it. It would mean more exposure, because they have a lot less models than Suicide Girls, but it would also mean that I can't model for SG now or in the future. I don't want to burn my bridges, especially since they haven't even been built yet.

I had an awesome dream about my grandma last night. We were eating dinner in a restaurant that reminded me of a place I used to go for breakfast, The Roundup. The restaurant was right next to California Screamin' inside DCA, and after dinner my mom, aunt, sister and Jay decided to go ride the coaster. I offered to sit with my grandma and watch. However, right before the ride was about to start, grandma said she wanted to get on because she was too old not to try it. So, we got in the very last car of the coaster and rode. It was awesome, and I woke up feeling happier than I've been in awhile. I miss her so much, it hurts even to think about her. I think it's going to be a long time before it doesn't.