Tonight's Music - Katatonia
who could call my name without regretting
who could see beyond this my darkness
and for once save their own prayers
who could mirror down just a little
of their sun
how could this go so very wrong
that I must depend on darkness
would anyone follow me further down
how could this go so very far
that I need someone to say
what is wrong
not with the world but me
who could call my name without regretting
who could promise to never destroy me
tonight my head is full of wishes
and everything I drink is full of her
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1)the past 5 years of my life have been progressively worse, leading to the hell-catalyst being this very year, whose end-reaction has been this week.
2)my family is the definition of torn apart. (i dont think this blog has the character capacity to support the history, so ill spare you the soap opera)
3)i found out my brother betrayed me. helped scam a tonne of money from work...at the job I got him. i may lose my job. he will probably face legal consequences. hes 16.
4) my grandfather had an aneurysm yesterday. he is now in critical condition, paralyzed and drooling.
5)my mom is more depressed than ive ever seen (and ive been watching since i was about 5).
i was planning to have a fun weekend. i was planning to finish this school year and move on with my life. funny how my life will just never smooth out.
i dont think ya'll will be hearing from me in the next few weeks. enjoy my new set if it goes live. i need to really evaluate my life so as to prevent from doing something 'stupid'
who could call my name without regretting
who could see beyond this my darkness
and for once save their own prayers
who could mirror down just a little
of their sun
how could this go so very wrong
that I must depend on darkness
would anyone follow me further down
how could this go so very far
that I need someone to say
what is wrong
not with the world but me
who could call my name without regretting
who could promise to never destroy me
tonight my head is full of wishes
and everything I drink is full of her
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1)the past 5 years of my life have been progressively worse, leading to the hell-catalyst being this very year, whose end-reaction has been this week.
2)my family is the definition of torn apart. (i dont think this blog has the character capacity to support the history, so ill spare you the soap opera)
3)i found out my brother betrayed me. helped scam a tonne of money from work...at the job I got him. i may lose my job. he will probably face legal consequences. hes 16.
4) my grandfather had an aneurysm yesterday. he is now in critical condition, paralyzed and drooling.
5)my mom is more depressed than ive ever seen (and ive been watching since i was about 5).
i was planning to have a fun weekend. i was planning to finish this school year and move on with my life. funny how my life will just never smooth out.
i dont think ya'll will be hearing from me in the next few weeks. enjoy my new set if it goes live. i need to really evaluate my life so as to prevent from doing something 'stupid'
Seriously, if you feel like talking or anything, I'm pretty much always in, ok? Take care now.
i don't know how much that helps, especially since i've been in tennessee all summer so we haven't talked, but just a little love to hopefully make you feel a bit better.