and so the saga continues. She knows she's sending me mixed signals and said she's going to stop. then straight away signs out of msn before we can actually carry on the conversation. which is what she always does when the topic of conversation turns to something serious. Proper pisses me off. Grr. Why can't people just have a normal, sensible civil discussion about stuff like this and actually talk it through properly. like grown ups.
Work is pissing me off as well. Manager still can't seem to do a rota and now we're open till 9 i'm doing 12.30-9 tomorrow. what a shit shift. Also most customers are arseholes. And i don't mean to be racist but most eastern europeans are rude. They don't look at you when you talk to them, and one guy actually waved me away yesterday. Fucking rude. Although I did serve a really nice Czech guy who tried to joke with me, had good english, and asked if it was alright if he spoke in his native language when speaking to his gf. really nice guy. but rude people who don't acknowledge when you're talking to them just winds me up.
Gah one day I'll right a blog that's really positive and my life will be smelling of roses. I'm looking forward to that day. Unfortunately that day is not today.
As a result this blog's song is this...
Work is pissing me off as well. Manager still can't seem to do a rota and now we're open till 9 i'm doing 12.30-9 tomorrow. what a shit shift. Also most customers are arseholes. And i don't mean to be racist but most eastern europeans are rude. They don't look at you when you talk to them, and one guy actually waved me away yesterday. Fucking rude. Although I did serve a really nice Czech guy who tried to joke with me, had good english, and asked if it was alright if he spoke in his native language when speaking to his gf. really nice guy. but rude people who don't acknowledge when you're talking to them just winds me up.
Gah one day I'll right a blog that's really positive and my life will be smelling of roses. I'm looking forward to that day. Unfortunately that day is not today.
As a result this blog's song is this...
l1vingdeadgurl:
Thanks for the comment. I dont think its bi polar though. I am pretty sure its bpd as I dont have the long term mood swings that bi polar sufferers do. Someone said to me "life is a hell of a thing to happen to you" and though I think its true, its not bad forever. I am working on picking myself up out of a hole of self abuse and loathing I put myself in. You will be stronger when you come out of it. Keep you head up darling 