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ok i mostly use this blog because nobody i know reads it. In fact I don't think anybody reads it so thats why it's usually so whiney.

The thing I mentioned with that girl? Well that's over now. It was complicated situation to begin with and I knew this was probably how it was going end, but it still sucks that it does. I thought at first I'd find it easier than I am. I guess I got used to always having her to talk to. It now also sucks that all the people I talk to are unavailable. My best friend is at work, and the other two people i talk to about this stuff aren't available. So now I'm just sat in my room thinking, well what do i do?

This is where having depression as well really doesn't help. I was just starting to pick up and now I'm worried all that good will be undone and I'll sink back down again. I don't want to let that happen. So we'll see how well the medication is helping. I'm also really, really wanting a drink. Which doesn't usually happen at all, but it's been over a month now and I really want a Brothers Strawberry Cider. mmmm, so good.

this is her favourite song. she lives in london so a bit of a train journey away. as a result i'll probably never end up seeing her again.