listennow1

ah hello there. its been a while. i've had this open everyday just not really been using it.
Still doing a shit job not earning enough money. still occasionally going out and dancing like a dick head.
Now however both my grandparents are in hospital. My Nana has stomach problems in addition to the breathing problems she's had for years and a burnt hand. My Grandad is now also in with some major heart problems they can't operate on and basically his heart is worn out. They're both in their late 70s so have had a pretty good run. I've not had any family members die during my lifetime so this is all a bit weird and I have no idea quite how to react when I hear of their worsening health. I think its sunk in that they aren't going to get better but I feel like i should be doing/feeling more but i have no idea.

All of my friends have work/relationship issues going on right now so I don't want to burden them by telling them how unsure of everything I'm feeling but I needed to say something so I'm doing it on here.

Hope everyone else is good!

p.s. i am WASTING my life