i've been very anti-social recently. Both out of necessity and through choice. I have no money right now so I can't afford to go out and do things with my mates really. But also I'm just enjoying spending time on my own. Having a laugh with myself and being free to be as weird as i like. Not having to fit in with others people expectations, actions or conversations. I'm thinking its probably a bit weird. I might try and rectify it this week i don't know. I think i'm just feeling easily frustrated with people and life and so any chance I get to escape these things I'm enjoying. It's probably really bad.
I think i upset a friend the other day. I haven't seen her for a week, but we've been texting each other pretty much every day. She said she missed me and asked i missed her, i made the mistake of answering honestly, and said i don't miss you, because i've spoken to you everyday. I didn't elaborate that I don't really miss people in general. I don't really miss my parents who I haven't seen for 2 months and only speak to briefly once a week, so I'm not going to miss someone who I speak to everyday and saw last week. I know it sounds harsh, but I've just had enough of saying the right, expected thing. I don't want to upset people, but it frustrates me when I have to say things to keep people sweet. I know i need to follow the social wheel of life, but I just don't feel like it right now. The wheel isn't giving me much, I'm not giving it much. So all is far. But when I do start to give back, I expect something back in return. I've been having some issues with my physical appearence recently, which i know it stupid, and it annoys me that it's even getting to me, but still, it is a bit.
On the plus side I've actually applied for a job related to what i want to do! It's a runner job at a post-production company. I probably won't get it, but I feel quite happy that I've at least applied for it.
I haven't checked this made any sense again, hey ho. How is everyone?
Fucking love this song, gutted they split up a couple of years ago.
I think i upset a friend the other day. I haven't seen her for a week, but we've been texting each other pretty much every day. She said she missed me and asked i missed her, i made the mistake of answering honestly, and said i don't miss you, because i've spoken to you everyday. I didn't elaborate that I don't really miss people in general. I don't really miss my parents who I haven't seen for 2 months and only speak to briefly once a week, so I'm not going to miss someone who I speak to everyday and saw last week. I know it sounds harsh, but I've just had enough of saying the right, expected thing. I don't want to upset people, but it frustrates me when I have to say things to keep people sweet. I know i need to follow the social wheel of life, but I just don't feel like it right now. The wheel isn't giving me much, I'm not giving it much. So all is far. But when I do start to give back, I expect something back in return. I've been having some issues with my physical appearence recently, which i know it stupid, and it annoys me that it's even getting to me, but still, it is a bit.
On the plus side I've actually applied for a job related to what i want to do! It's a runner job at a post-production company. I probably won't get it, but I feel quite happy that I've at least applied for it.
I haven't checked this made any sense again, hey ho. How is everyone?
Fucking love this song, gutted they split up a couple of years ago.