EDIT: So yeah i thought instead of doing 2 blogs in one day i would just add to this little one.
I've just watched [500] days of summer. It was one of those films that made me think about things. I've literally just finished watching it so its all still quite fresh in my mind. It got me thinking about something that I had kind of being avoiding thinking about. Basically in the film the boy falls for the girl, gets girl, loses girl etc. etc. It made me think about how there was a time when I was pretty regularly longing for someone, whether that be just the idea of someone or someone in particular. This past year or so I haven't had that at all. For most of that time I have been fine with that, thinking I don't need someone I'm fine on my own. Now I'm thinking that maybe it is time to open up a bit and let someone in. But this extends beyond women and relationships. I don't seem to get excited or passionate about anything anymore. Things are provide a moment of relief or they just pass me by and I get nothing from it. Its like I've shut down on a lot of stuff and I don't know quite how to open up to them. My lack of confidence and shyness doesn't really help in this situation. I like to think that I don't care what people think about me, but really I do, well I care what my friends think. So when part of me thinks I should just try and go a little crazy, become a new man, I wonder what my friends will think of that. I assume negative so I stay as I am.
The Smith song says 'Please please please let me get what I want', I just want to know what I want first. Its a start.
I think I'm trying to put a variety of things across in the blog pretty badly and once again I am not proof reading any of it.
so yeah. i'm on Twitter if anybody wants to "follow me" then go for it. I still find that terminology a little bit weird. But i'm going to go for it for a bit.
Still no job. It seems I can't even get a job as a cleaner in a school. So thats a real boost.
EDIT AGAIN: Ok seems, maybe i can get a job as a cleaner in a school...
I've just watched [500] days of summer. It was one of those films that made me think about things. I've literally just finished watching it so its all still quite fresh in my mind. It got me thinking about something that I had kind of being avoiding thinking about. Basically in the film the boy falls for the girl, gets girl, loses girl etc. etc. It made me think about how there was a time when I was pretty regularly longing for someone, whether that be just the idea of someone or someone in particular. This past year or so I haven't had that at all. For most of that time I have been fine with that, thinking I don't need someone I'm fine on my own. Now I'm thinking that maybe it is time to open up a bit and let someone in. But this extends beyond women and relationships. I don't seem to get excited or passionate about anything anymore. Things are provide a moment of relief or they just pass me by and I get nothing from it. Its like I've shut down on a lot of stuff and I don't know quite how to open up to them. My lack of confidence and shyness doesn't really help in this situation. I like to think that I don't care what people think about me, but really I do, well I care what my friends think. So when part of me thinks I should just try and go a little crazy, become a new man, I wonder what my friends will think of that. I assume negative so I stay as I am.
The Smith song says 'Please please please let me get what I want', I just want to know what I want first. Its a start.
I think I'm trying to put a variety of things across in the blog pretty badly and once again I am not proof reading any of it.
so yeah. i'm on Twitter if anybody wants to "follow me" then go for it. I still find that terminology a little bit weird. But i'm going to go for it for a bit.
Still no job. It seems I can't even get a job as a cleaner in a school. So thats a real boost.
EDIT AGAIN: Ok seems, maybe i can get a job as a cleaner in a school...
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niobe:
I'll have to look into that. 
Thanks for the heads up. 
Thanks for the heads up. 
padam:
XD Not if I can't help it!