edit: I updated my photos, with prom photos.. and im putting the new ones of me (well in the past few months.. lots of new photos)
wow..
so last night was the SG Toronto Prom...
I was scared and excited, all I knew was Zarina (from her doing my first set, and meeting her in person before obviously)
I was worried Maria, Carolyn and Jon would be bored... well I knew Jon wouldnt, lots of hot girls helloooo.
They had fun I was so happy.
I have pictures up in the SG Toronto group but I will upload them here soon.
The night was a little weird for me..because my date Jon and I we are friends... the thing is I love him... and I told him how I felt a couple of months ago, however he was interested in this girl and they dated and just recently they broke up. I know he is interested in me, but scared about ruining the friendship.
Perhaps it was the alcohol or probably just helped us get closer last night I felt closer with him, he had his arm around me, we teased and flirted.. on the way home, Maria and Carolyn stopped for pizza and me and jon sat in the back.
I put my head down on his jacket and he put his hand on my shoulder and held me.. and then i just put my hand on his and we intertwined fingers and did that little touchy touchy thing with our hands... it was weird.. and it felt so good.. i wish it didn't stop.
Now i am left with this feeling today of uncertainty.. I dont want to say anything.
because well Lisa (his ex) is coming today to hang out with him, and I think I may wait until they dont hang out as much, besides she lives in Kitchener/Guelph and he lives here in Thornhill... please!
His band goes on tour with Jairus in August all around Europe and I will tell him in a letter... give him time to think.
I just dont want to harm the friendship (AGAIN).. the first time i told him it made us closer, this time it could push us apart.. and everyone knows thats the last thing I want. I think we are both mature to not let that happen.
But I do love him. and I think he has some feelings for me.
i wish I could stop crying... and enjoy the weather outside.
wow..
so last night was the SG Toronto Prom...
I was scared and excited, all I knew was Zarina (from her doing my first set, and meeting her in person before obviously)
I was worried Maria, Carolyn and Jon would be bored... well I knew Jon wouldnt, lots of hot girls helloooo.
They had fun I was so happy.
I have pictures up in the SG Toronto group but I will upload them here soon.
The night was a little weird for me..because my date Jon and I we are friends... the thing is I love him... and I told him how I felt a couple of months ago, however he was interested in this girl and they dated and just recently they broke up. I know he is interested in me, but scared about ruining the friendship.
Perhaps it was the alcohol or probably just helped us get closer last night I felt closer with him, he had his arm around me, we teased and flirted.. on the way home, Maria and Carolyn stopped for pizza and me and jon sat in the back.
I put my head down on his jacket and he put his hand on my shoulder and held me.. and then i just put my hand on his and we intertwined fingers and did that little touchy touchy thing with our hands... it was weird.. and it felt so good.. i wish it didn't stop.
Now i am left with this feeling today of uncertainty.. I dont want to say anything.
because well Lisa (his ex) is coming today to hang out with him, and I think I may wait until they dont hang out as much, besides she lives in Kitchener/Guelph and he lives here in Thornhill... please!
His band goes on tour with Jairus in August all around Europe and I will tell him in a letter... give him time to think.
I just dont want to harm the friendship (AGAIN).. the first time i told him it made us closer, this time it could push us apart.. and everyone knows thats the last thing I want. I think we are both mature to not let that happen.
But I do love him. and I think he has some feelings for me.
i wish I could stop crying... and enjoy the weather outside.
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noo you rock