i found out today that my dog of 11 years/my first dog ever, has very limited days left 
she had some x-rays done today and my dad came home with the bad news. the biggest thing is that she has a tumor about half the size of my forearm between her kidney and liver. she also has some calcium build up on her spine. and the last one i remember is that she has arthritis in her hips. that's not so surprising since she's part german shepherd and it's common for that breed to have bad hips. there was another thing, i think but it was so overwhelming tha i can't remember any more. i knew this day would come, but i never anticipated how hard it would hit me. 11 years! that's crazy....
it's inspired me to get a tattoo tho. i want a sleeve (even tho both forearms have something on them already), so i think i'll make something of meaning on my left arm. need to start thinking of what exactly i want. i have 2 tattoos that deal with death, and i really like the beauty in death, so i'm thinking of something along those lines.
anyway, i'm off to bed.
- liss<3
she had some x-rays done today and my dad came home with the bad news. the biggest thing is that she has a tumor about half the size of my forearm between her kidney and liver. she also has some calcium build up on her spine. and the last one i remember is that she has arthritis in her hips. that's not so surprising since she's part german shepherd and it's common for that breed to have bad hips. there was another thing, i think but it was so overwhelming tha i can't remember any more. i knew this day would come, but i never anticipated how hard it would hit me. 11 years! that's crazy....
it's inspired me to get a tattoo tho. i want a sleeve (even tho both forearms have something on them already), so i think i'll make something of meaning on my left arm. need to start thinking of what exactly i want. i have 2 tattoos that deal with death, and i really like the beauty in death, so i'm thinking of something along those lines.
anyway, i'm off to bed.
- liss<3
benji was 12 and he was my first dog ever too. I know how you're feeling right now. It's been 2 months and for the most part I've healed on the surface, but every time I go home it still feels empty and I even expect to see benji sometimes.
i hope you can try and take your mind off of your doggie and just cherish and take advantage of every moment you have with him.