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And another day goes lumbering buy at a leisurely pace. Not that it has been a bad day, not at all. It has just been another day of angry thought and introspective examination. My lady friend of the past three years is planning to move to another state. To witch she will attend a bigger and better school and in that situation it will lead her on to a bigger and better life. Of course this decision had been made with my thoughts and feelings in mind, in fact it was upon my recommendation that she ultimately decided to leave. But that is beside the point. The point that I am trying to make is life is full of decisions that none of us wish we had to make. And no matter what the decision is it always ends with us trying to pay homage to some greater cause, some esoteric idea that we have one chance to get everything right. And if we fail at that chance we will slip into the great unknown that we have lovingly labeled with the term sadness. This emotion have many faces so do not be deceived by what other name it might come calling too. Anger, hate jealousy, fear, contempt, all of these emotions breed one thing, discomfort and animosity to whatever has caused the onslaught of this nameless demon that relentlessly assaults you at every moment of every day. I have come to find myself caught in the crossfire of this aforementioned state of mind many of times and through all of my years do you now what I have learned?

Thats dumb.

I have gone through the array of emotions on countless occasions and I have come to find that if you hide from them you make the outcome much, much worse. So I have begun to enjoy it. Yes enjoy the sadness because it is a wonderful gift to feel. Dont neglect it.

I am gunna miss the Hell outa Cat when she goes.