i wish i could get off this emotional rollercoaster sometimes... i hurt too much... a friend called me to tell me what the girl i'm smitten over told me the night i ran from her after I was gone... what she told her broke my heart... but here's the thing... the girl i ran from, the girl of my dreams, woke me up that morning after she got back from her partying fun goodtimes without me, and told me she couldn't stop thinking about me, that my words were beautiful, that i was amazing... but still, there's all this confusion... confusion over what she wants romantically right now... and i being me, may not even qualify... but knowing my heart, this is what i want... this is what matters... and some part of me believes she is beginning to see that... or maybe she just doesn't want me to hurt over her anymore... maybe i deserve a mercy killing.