why do i gotta be so stupid? what compels me so? if i have to answer for myself, i can assign blame or suck it up. I'll suck it up and say it's just my faulty programming. My mental defects. My inability to see past myself and my actions. I desire truth and honesty, and I breed something else entirely. I don't want to lose her, but I want her to see me and know me. There is little more I can do. I've told her all there is, except she does not know me. I am numb, but I will hurt again soon. I already ache in her absence.
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The way I see it, this can do down two ways:
1-You get some food and a full nights rest. Then tomorrow you focus all your pain and angst into something creative like a script or painting.
or
2-I secretly slip a heroic dose of shrooms in your salad and spend the next week in a motel.
Your choice man.